“ dangerous “ a Galepaw death project

Instructions

“ it’s gonna be dangerous, my friend. “ Galepaw had never really known death. who did? only Mistykit had died, then Xyrispaw disappeared. she hadn’t known either well, but she considered Xyris a friend and Mistykit her sibling. “ you’ll need a mindset change for this. “ death was the only thing Galepaw feared. not a fight, not a cat. no, it was death. “ you cannot get away with playing safe for this. “ how did it work? she knew it was inevitable, and that’s what scared her. knowing that she’d die eventually and she’d have no way to stop it. “ you wanna get home? put it all on the line. “ this is why she was scared now. “ and put you’re whole brain in it. “ she had always thought she would die when her injury got worse. she supposed she was right. “ remember every trick in your domain for this. “ there chaos was. in UrchinClan territory. . “ you gotta treat it like the main event “ and dying. “ you wanna get home? put it all on the line. “ a pretty stupid way to go, chaos thought. in enemy territory with no one to cry over her. chaos couldn’t even move with how much pain her injury was in. “ don’t you know that danger is my friend? “ she supposed it had become infected. why wouldn’t it? a bitter laugh escapes the grey apprentice. “ my whole life I have trained for this. “ she couldn’t believe her luck. chaos lost that fight all those moons ago, and now she was dying because of it. this was hilarious. “ I cannot tell you how much I’ve paid for this. “ who would miss her? not a lot of cats, she thought. definitely not Hickorypaw. nor Reflectionpaw. chaos was an incredibly annoying cat. would Morningrise miss her joking during training? or would she be relieved her unserious apprentice was gone? “ I have to get home, put it all on the line. “ would her father, Pigeonstar, cry over her death? or would vey forget her after a moon or two? “ I’m gonna use ruthlessness. “ would Shinepaw miss her? or would vey just shake his head and say ‘you should’ve been more careful’? “ every trick, every skill put to use for this. “ would Sproutpaw mourn Galepaw? or would she not care, simply banish chaos from her mind? “ I plan to put an end to all the foolishness. “ why did chaos care so much, now? normally she wouldn’t mind what others thought of her. but now, with the prospect of never seeing her family again. . this was different. the same question plagued her mind as she lay there. had she done anything *good* in her entire life? or had she just played pranks and never cared what other’s had felt? that warrior she threw mud at. were they just angry at being messy, or were they in the middle of grieving a loss? when she set up that catapult and hit Dewberrypaw, had she simply been walking, or heading to see someone she cared for? when she reached over the border, was Hickorypaw angry because of the scent mark? or was void upset because he knew someone who needed that moss for something other than a prank? when she had killed Reflectionpaw, was she simply begging for her life? or did she have others expecting her to care for them? “ I have to get home, put it all on the line. “ chaos was disappointed in herself. how could she just. . not think so much? chaos curls up, tears falling from her eyes. now she would never apologize for her actions, nor never say goodbye to those she loved. chaos exhales a final breath, a last whisper in the air. “ I’m sorry. “ before she grew still, and her flame was snuffed out. “ I’ll be dangerous. “