why am I so afraid of you it’s overbearing your voice your face it didn’t used to be this scary until the we are not what we once were I can no longer call myself your friend and you can no longer call me your girlfriend every time I think I hear it see you in the corner of my eye your name, even someone else who shares it it’s like a lightning bolt to my brain shocking me, freezing me in place it is a serpent, a beast, a monster and for each head I cut off two more grow back in its place and I’m leaning over, breathing heavily crying into my arm silent sobs that no one sees the fear may never go away but I will I will find a way leave this fear cut off the source and let the rest fall behind I do not know why I am still so afraid of you I only know that it is for good reason I only know that I cannot let you take even when you are not here I must learn not to forgive but to forget raze my mind to the ground and start anew
