Hi, I've been feeling down lately. Seasonal depression or something, I don't know. Anyways, my sister has been getting on my last nerve recently. She's been bugging me about playing Minecraft with her and you know how people only play Minecraft for two weeks every six months. She's always saying "I do nice things for you, but you never do anything for me." And anytime she's bad, my mother always says "She got that from Kait." Like, I'm so sick of other people saying "Oh, you look like your mother" or "Oh, you look like your father" I just want to look like me. I don't want to be judged for my interests or who I am. And when I confront them, it's always "We're not judging you, just trying to make you into a better person." But I wear a singular outfit my mother doesn't like and suddenly it's "Oh, I didn't know I had another son" (I'm female btw). It's so annoying. I can't be who I am. And I want to go to a pride parade because I'm bisexual because I'm too scared to ask because I'm afraid it'll remind them that I'm not the daughter they wanted. I'm not the perfect child and I'm not like my sister. She's so mean to me because I have friends and she doesn't, but she doesn't actively make an effort to be social and she's so jealous of me and she'll try to copy me, and I just want to be left alone! I just want to rot in my room. It feels like I'm dead. Enjoyment has lost all meaning. Maybe I'm being dramatic or maybe everyone else is putting on a show. I feel insane.
Thanks for reading. I do f4f.
