holding back tears is like putting up a wall the water's going to build up eventually overflowing and coming out when they do, it doesn't stop until it's all gone everything comes out the thoughts you've been holding back, the feelings you didn't want to show, the things you want to, but can't do that one and only person the one you can always go to the one you can trust with your thoughts the one you can show your true colors and feelings to the one and only person seen in books and movies, shows and reality that best friend you talk to all the time with that family member you really connect with that one and only person seen in others' lives, but not your own waiting and watching and wondering thinking of all the things you would do together that one and only person someone you will never have and don't deserve trying to consume yourself with other things to distract yourself but knowing they don't exist and questioning why will you ever know why you are the way you are? probably not do you always think about it? yes will others willingly help? never do you seek help? yes do they actually help? no will things ever work out for you? no will you ever get the things you want? no will others? yes This bench holds too many memories When we met, when we started to trust each other, our first hug, our first secret I wait here for you to come because I need you like I always do You come, we talk, we hug, I cry Now it holds when I first cried to you bottled emotions and thoughts trapped, rotting in their jar once it overflows or gets too disgusting what do you do? how do you get rid of them? you could say them its too late to say and no one will listen you cant throw them away you want to hold on you cant give them to another you dont want them to feel this way so what do you do? you write or scream or hurt someone writing sometimes works screaming is never allowed you could never hurt someone so you drown yourself in music sad makes you feel unserstood religious is confusing happy is all a lie
have no idea what im doing guys i have some pictures to show you, but ill need to get them in a little
