sooo yesss... i'm taking a break from scratch because of my mental health. i'm not diagnosed with depression or anything serious like that. i just felt that i need a break because i'm mentally exhausted (and guys trust, y'all made me feel so much better) + i'm writing my boards soon, so i also need to focus on my studies. so yep, i'm on a break from today and idk when I'll be back or if I'll even be back. i just wanted to say thanks to all my friends here :D y'all are angelss i love you guys SOOOOOOOSOOOOOOOOO much <3 + i said idk if I'll be coming back because i'm not really sure if I'll be ready to come back.
what the duck is my problem? tbh, idek. i'm extremely insecure and a over thinker. plus, i'm way too clingy and possessive over everyone i love. ik this is bad. I've tried to change, but i just can't stop the disgusting thoughts i have about myself like it became so serious these days, i can't even look at the mirror without feeling ugly or disgusted in my own skin. i don't mean to give off this negative energy, but every time i see myself i just see an ugly fat and untalented human. i just hate myself sm. everything i do pisses me off. like i don't have a personality. i don't have any talents. I'm not pretty. I'm just jealous and insecure. i feel disgusted like everytime i see someone my age so pretty, i just feel sick to my stomach. like why can't i be like her? why me? why am i so ugly? i just hurt everyone around me (ik it's cringe) overall a negative person. idk why. i can't stop it. i need serious help, but i also do not want to burden you guys all with my obsessiveness and clingyness (?) and trust me guys, this isn't about anyone else or i'm not being like y'all don't care about me, ik you guys do and that's why I'm doing this. so, tbh, in short, i think this place is better without me and i'm saying this to y'all, goodbye, i will always love you and miss you guys <3
