Hi, I’m Trinity, but my friends call me Trin or Twin. I wanted to share that I’ve been struggling a lot lately. My first real friend just moved far away, and I’m scared I might never see him again. I met him in 4th grade, and before that, I never really had a friend. I used to feel invisible a lot of the time, like everyone else already had their own groups and I was just this extra person no one really noticed or needed around. When I met him, something finally changed. He actually talked to me, laughed with me, and treated me like I mattered. Over the years, we became very close. We built so many memories together—inside jokes, long conversations, and those random moments that don’t seem big at the time but end up meaning everything later. He was the person I could be my true self around, without feeling judged or weird. When I was having a bad day, he always seemed to know how to make me smile or at least feel a little less alone. He wasn’t just my friend; he was the first person who made me feel understood. Now that he’s gone, everything feels different. I cry almost every time I think about him, especially when I remember all the times we spent together and how safe and happy I felt around him. The places we used to hang out feel empty, and sometimes I catch myself looking around, almost expecting him to be there, even though I know he’s not. There’s this song that reminds me of our friendship and all the fun we had together, so I turn it on whenever I miss him. When I listen to it, I can almost see us again—laughing, talking, and just being ourselves without worrying about anything else. The song helps me remember how much our friendship means to me and how important he is in my life. It’s like a way of keeping him close, even though he’s far away. I don’t know what the future holds or if we’ll ever get to see each other in person again, but I do know that what we have is real. The distance hurts, but it doesn’t erase the bond we built. No matter where we both end up, I’ll always be grateful that I met him, because he showed me what it feels like to truly have a friend.
Updates Feb-5= I got bullied already, and my teachers hate me I don't understand why or what I did to deserve this I got called out for cheating when I didn't, and that was In-front of the entire class also I was rejected by stucco and I'm debating if I should quit. Feb-9= I can't get my thoughts of him. I almost started crying in class. I really need help getting a hold of my emotions. Feb-10= ive quit stuco i finaly left, but life is still the same.
