' ' My Only Sense of Purpose ' ' - A TSS SRP

Instructions

Tw: self doubt, uh- I think that’s it “No time to waste, cannot be late for fate” Moon 1 An apprentice, I was an apprentice, I am an apprentice. The day that my name was shouted to the clan, the day that I got my mentor, I felt as if I would faint, but I didn’t, I stayed put, staring up at the leader before I ran over to mother. But she was… she wasn’t there, I didn’t know where she was. “You know what they say about bright flames” Moon 2 Apprenticeship was easy, but I couldn’t help but worry about my siblings. Sheeppaw was a medicine cat apprentice, xe had it so much harder than I did. Having to learn to heal, watching cats die, thankfully none had yet, and if xe didn’t do it properly then the cat wouldn’t get better, they would stay sick. “Gonna burn out, they’re gonna replace you” Moon 3 I’ve been distant, from… everyone. Just stuck in thought. I was not very enthusiastic as a kit, I’m still not. I don’t show much emotion, minus the occasional smile of frown. I either just look hateful, or tired, it’s just a resting face for me. And I hate it. I hate how little emotion I show, I hate that I don’t interact with anyone. I hate it, I hate it so much. I never needed to show emotion though. I never needed to do anything. I always had mother to get my siblings to listen to me, I always had mother who would listen to me, and show me things, it was always mother. And then there was River… Mother didn’t like her, he never got attention from mother. Which also meant he never got attention from me… I should’ve talked to it, I should’ve given it a bit of thought. It always seemed that she was resentful towards everyone, I didn’t see why, I wasn’t that way, or I tried not to be. River always worked harder than the rest of us, she was older. Mother wasn’t at his apprenticeship, she hadn’t showed up, I had noticed when I glanced over at the small crowd that we called our clan. What was wrong with River? I didn’t want to ask mother, I would figure it out myself, I had to… “Replicate, AI generate, you” Moon 4 Figuring out why mother disliked Riverpaw was hard. And, to be honest I didn’t want to all that much. I just wanted to be happy with mother, but I couldn’t shake the thought that she didn’t like River. Moon 5 I actually went to a gathering for once, it was… alright I guess. I met another cat there, he was… not that great. A loner was there just spying on the clans WHILE TALKING BADLY ABOUT THEM! And I don’t really care what he said about the other clans, I could care less about them, but he was saying things about all of them, including Iceclan the clan that I was born into. I genuinely thought about attacking him right then and there, or at least telling someone about him, but I didn’t, and he had left when I said to. I really hope that I don’t ever meet him again. Moon 6 Aurora-Quartzrock is now leader. And it’s so easy to become deputy for the clan now. Which means I need rocks, I desperately need them… oh yea- I met that cat I had seen before at the gathering… I now own a scar because of him tricking me… but I guess that I did attack him first… but stars he was still pissing me off, I didn’t know what else to do. Well, I have another rock, one that I won’t give away. I don’t know why but it feels important to me. However I do have to hide it, I can’t let Aurora-Quartz take it from me. Moon 7 the final moon Warrior. I had worked hard enough to achieve it. 13 moons. Good, and bad moons. Cats I liked meeting, versus ones that I didn’t. Overworking, and underworking. And I had gotten to this point. I smiled, tears staining my eyes, but not from anything wrong. From how much I felt I had achieved, from how much I had fought my way to this point. From being a spoiled kid, to a functioning adult. I have many to thank though: Charmaine, Glimmeraurora, my siblings, even Riverrunner. Two chapters of my life, all of it, already over.