Ever since I saw you I haven’t known what to say I really thought you were over it I thought you were done and then you said those things those terrible, awful things you told me it was my fault you called me a and you wonder why I broke up with you don’t you see? this wasn’t me it was you and you were like this before what happened yet you blame it on what I did I started writing these poems a few months before it ended. I used them to reflect try to find peace with my emotions. and then you came along and shattered them all over again. why did you write that? what did you have to prove? I still can’t figure it out. maybe you want me to feel scared. alone. maybe you want me to feel like you. I’m sorry I couldn’t help you but know that I tried to and it wasn’t good for either of us. and I couldn’t keep going the way it was. know this too. know that I’m still trying. I can’t leave you like this wearing the mask you thought was necessary I won’t let you stay like this. I will never forgive you. you probably won’t forgive me. and I don’t even know if you’ll read this. but if you do, please know that I am not going to let you die.
