So I’ve lately felt very weird. I’ve been considering some stuff. I’ve felt some stuff that’s pretty bad. So if u don’t know my situation then go to this project: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1262222901/ But anyways I’ve been kinda lonely. And I’ve been considering a very bad thing (if u know, u know) I’ve been very stressed out and had 3 anxiety attacks and 5 panic attacks. I feel like I’m losing my friends (irl and online) And I feel ignored a lot of times, mostly bc of my parents. All this has been happening and increasing since 2 months ago. The only place I am safe from my parents is at school and I feel like I’m losing support systems. I know if I tell my favorite teachers that they would tell my mom and dad since my dad works at the high school I’m zoned for. I just don’t know what to do abt it. I am way too stressed rn. My vision is going in and out and my thoughts are all jumbled and static in my head. I’m shaking rly badly and overthinking about everything. I’m just not doing that great in general. I wish I could leave this situation but I can’t drive and I’m still legally with my parents as their child. I wish I could come out to them, but they accidentally found out once and now my mom keeps on yellling at me about how “god loves u” and “God will fix u” (no offense to Christian’s and others who believe in God) But that just not for me I’m Atheist meaning I DON’T believe in a god(s). I also have been seeing stuff and imagining stuff. My mental state is not that great.
