Basicly a LONG LONG time ago I shared a project about how I was loosing friends and I did not know why. I basicly refreshed my life at school and made new friends some how after all the rumers. There names are Adi (for short) becker. Adi boorman (for short) Lyra. freya. & kinley! Some new rumers spread quick I like lyra, I go to school with mostly normies like BAD normies they hated furrys therian pride and many other socialy awkwared things! kinley was one of them.. I never knew but she did not unfriend me YET. She asked if I had a crush on lyra and by time I knew there were rumers because the first time a girl named caroline had been wishpering (very loudly) to my old bff liala, liala was kind and was not part of the past troubles I had! but caroline whisperd to her and I heard then kinley asked blah blah blat blat. After this kinley told everyone the truth and I was back at weirdo instead of weirdo freak yet I did not care... anyways long story short I got into this argument with freya my closest bff I did not know why at the time but now I know... after this adi boorman was my "replacement." Her new closest bff and I was her 2nd but now we dont talk much but we both apoligezed in the end now if I told that story then this would be too long so to shorten this up now there was only me lyra and adi becker. I was left out because lyra and adi be was longer friend with eachother, atfirst I did not mind untill this time in scinest we had partners and uselly we would beg the teacher for a group of three and they would say yes (cuz we like that) anyway this time ade be said we cant even tho we never asked even tho lyra agreeded to ask so I just said "oh its ok ill work bymyself" I was at my seat untill adi be dragged lyra to where I was sitting and they laughed and worked right next to me yet adibe never inculuded me but lyra tried but adi would just force me out. and now ever sense adi has been in the middle instead of being in the front while I was in back and lyra in middle. she got in middle and would yap to lyra still ALWAYS trying to get me out of there convo in a way lyra would not notice. But I DID notice at free time for math I basicly was alone because ofcource adi left me out like normal now... but this time I figured somthing out all my old friend adi (becker) was friends with and was still after they had ignored and been rude to me I TOLD HER WHAT HAPPENED yet she was still friends with them I told her one of her closest friend -lyra (nellie) FRAMED ME FOR BULLYING HER !! yet she was still friends with her. now who am I to tell her to not be friend with them. but the thing I noticed she was always with them and never stood up for me when they talked and laughed about me behind my back NO SHE JOINED!!!! and now shes friended me? "what was I thinking" ?! I now think shes trying to make me unfriend eveyone who is still nice to me and make me only friends with her and lyra so that I can get mad and fight with them to make me barley hae contact with them like freya and make a lonley social dweeb (I dont mind being one) but want atleast one friend and adi has been trying to take that away from me, and poor lyra does not notice! like she DID NOT CARE when lyra started bleeding she was like womp womp yet lyra takes it as a joke because we joke around rudely to eachother but while someone is HURT?! not even my crazy self would do that like WHUT!!!!! Part two I dont know what to do I feel like so horrible for thinking this and I feel so bad for not having good handling skills like I cant even help in fact at first I was such an idot to not understand even tho I WAS EXPLAINED WHAT HAPPENED and then I act so clueless at this point I feel so useless I though this year was gonna be good but no I'm just so stupid and mean like such a bad friend this year.... how can I be so blind. why... why,... WHY?! not even my parents care there barley here and when I need them. They did not belive I had deppresion adhd or any of my mental issues..... my life is such a floofing mess... Everytime I sleep nightmare.. if I sleep that is so its been like this for 5 weeks no one cares. I HATE LIVING RIGHT NOW! "I may just be over reacting and this is all in my mind."
I will make a vent server for myself and others..
