messages for my friends!

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so anyways let me tell you about my friend life..... most of my friends I did have left me for "things" so that honestly makes me wary when it comes to people. I have a huge fear of rejection so when I'm told something specific or I see I haven't succeeded something so I get very discouraged. I don't have all that many irl friends but the ones I do have I'm thankful bc everyday they make me laugh, and smile! from my previous project most of the friends I have told me they haven't done it bc of me and I feel like such a hypocrite bc I want to do it and I've tried to already and FORCED myself to stop it . (iykyk) so I'm so sorry to all of those people for thinking this way, bc I know that if I' stopped you, you will feel incredibly guilty that you couldn't keep me from doing it....I can honestly say the same thing ...... You guys are the reason I'm living...... Jade.... You always listen whenever I need it and you always comfort me and I know you are busy with your stuff and I feel so guilty for getting in your way but you always say its ok....your selfless and that's the best quality for me in a friend..... (would that be a good idea for a song?? I think the title "You've got a friend in me" sounds edgy lol) Anna... we don't talk to each other 24/7 but you are so kind and you keep me so motivated and I really enjoy working in groups with you because you have the fun energy that I think is a good thing in a friend!! ena ... You and me aren't really friends but I would really love to be! your so kind, and fun and SUPA DUPA TALENTED!!!! (I wish I had your thumb making skills!! ToT tutorials on u-tube are too boring to watch ahhhhh ToT) nick... Your not in the Spop comm but it doesn't matter bc your awesome!!! I love being there for you, and I'm glad we've shared these past couple of years sharing so many memories! You're such a great friend and I hope you know that! I LITERALLY met you on scratch and I find it memorable that your realest friends can be met online, so thanks for being the bestest friend someone could ask for!! Phoebe... You're the first person who treated me like a human being should be treated! you're like an IRL sister to me, and I'm so grateful for you, I don't know what I would do without you!!! Thanks so much for being there (and girl how do you rap the part in psycho so fast ToT) Aleera... Your the best reporter ever!!!! (not bc you praise me but bc you say things like your preaching them lol!) your the first person who saw so much potential in me and you love my voice so much, so thanks for not saying I sound like a dying rat!!! (my old friends say my singing was too shaky and my highnotes sucked) but I'm trying ok and last but not least.... MY OLD FRIENDS.... some of you guys may not see this, but I'm gonna tell you now.... Boy is it your guys lost..... I forgive you....But know that its gonna be hard to get me back... those constant years of speaking behind my back, faking the shared smiles, everything..... I hope you regret it all know that you know not even you can bring me down... because guess what... I have real friends now, and there more than what you all could never be.... A friend