Being the girl who never has a Valentine on Valentines day makes me mad.. <33 It's about watching everyone get partners before you and like sure ur young and u don't NEED a partner and u remind urself that but like at the same time its so draining like why does it feel like ur unlovable...EVEN THO U DONT HAVE THE MENTAL CAPACITY TO HANDLE HAVING A RELATIONSHIP. like buddy I cant even keep a friendship stable a relationship would be worse for me honestly.. DURATION: 2:52 yes the picture is me <3 I was too lazy to make an actual cover so yeuh
LYRICS ---------- [VERSE 1] cross my heart and hope to die it's february 13th on a friday night everybody has their plans and I'm falling behind everybody has their picks and I'm last in line a sudden surge hits my motherboard I don't really wanna be alone but everyone I know comes and goes so I leave my heart like an unpaid loan [CHORUS] love is a drug that wouldn't suffice cause it keeps me up all night I have bugs feeding on my mind wondering which path is wrong and right hearts in my throat and my eyes in my ears wishing that I could disappear I'm the shadow in this crowd they're going up and I'm heading down [VERSE 2] i haven't really thought about a kiss but if you lean in then I'll give in and I'll realize I've been so desperate to feel what others feel on a saturday morning and the times that they spend with their lover holding hands with one another never knew how deep it gets when you realize you can be more than friends [CHORUS] love is a drug that wouldn't suffice cause it keeps me up all night I have bugs feeding on my mind wondering which path is wrong and right hearts in my throat and my eyes in my ears wishing that I could disappear I'm the shadow in this crowd they're going up and I'm heading down [BRIDGE] it gets me cynical the thoughts feel so clinical love is like a criminal that has never been caught I wanna be part of the crime and I don't care if I'm losing my mind surely I'm somebody's type I mean..I might? [CHORUS] love is a drug that wouldn't suffice cause it keeps me up all night I have bugs feeding on my mind wondering which path is wrong and right hearts in my throat and my eyes in my ears wishing that I could disappear I'm the shadow in this crowd they're going up and I'm heading down