erm...ft rith's oc ig,the proj crashed so can't post it ribfrubfurbfiurebfubfrrufrgtgtgfdes but the edit flopped sm i hate this crap don't read if u don't want to,like seriously don't bruh- all things i said r cringe n pointless wtv bro idk i've been feeling so confused these days,tired restless , weak,sensitive i dunno,cryng over every lil thing ppl say to me or wtv,im too insecure,they're taking over my dreams now,like stop i hate these dreams,they always have things i hate or that makes me feel bad, i hate my b9dy,my cringe self,to everyone im js a backup friend,they're always w someone else,n when they have an argument or when they're lonely to come to me,talking about how they're friends r so bad,then the next day,they're bestie again n forget i even exist, they use me js not to be alone,this one cousin of mine who's like a year older then me treats me like im only 7,won't talk to me,she would call a stranger for help even if im sitting right there,even once said to me 'i'll js sit here next to u,no one's keeping me company' tbh i don't care about her,she js pmo,but rn..ppl keep telling me how im their fav,how im the sweetest how much they love me blah blah,i feel so good when they do that but ik its js some random things they say for the moment,they still have other ppl they like more than me, thats not the problem,the thing is,im not anyone best fav person,even if i am they have closer bonds w someone else,n im talking both online n irl,so ig im talking about ygs too? im not blaming u,im not saying that u have to love me,what hurts me is that im not their type,im js a nice lil girl who prevents arguments,who's sweet n nice,blah blah thats all,im a punching bag,that ur anger out of me,yeah,ik this sounds stupid but it hurts,n why do these pp have to be around me? all they do is take about my looks n stuff,like i hate them,their selfish n talk about how i 'changed' yeah im not to change,keep telling me im the best person u've ever met but ik,ik yall have even better ppl then me, everytime someone new comes,everyone's fond of them,here i've been living for a decade n 3 years n online for 2 years n still lonely,idek bro tbh i js want someone for myself,who'd d1e for me,n smth else bothering is how i don't a thing to live for,ppl have passions dreams or smth that speaks themselfs,smth that they feel true to,smth they're best at,i don't even have that, i do have friends who love me n stuff,i love them too,i have sm that so many others don't yet my stupid brain always thinks of the bad part of it all,i don't wanna be ungrateful bruh u don't have to read or even say anything idc,but why does all the sound so stupid? cringey ahhhhh
