burnout of the autistic variety

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There is nothing in this project to do. This is another "read-only" project, kind of like how TAoC News was. Before I cancelled it in favor of devlogs. (i miss you taoc news i love you my baby child i want you back) Uhh, so I was on YouTube procrastinating and trying to escape from doing my nonexistent work (it is the end of the semester so even if i did my 22 missing assignments they wouldn't count) and i found this autistic girl talking about stuff, and i kept watching more and more of her videos and i found out about autistic burnout. for a while i thought is was just depressed and that if i got my own space that isn't around my dad i would feel better, but turns out all the depression things i've been having fit less into depression and more into autistic burnout. I JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT IT YESTERDAY, JANUARY 17 2026 Yeah, all the stuff that's been happening with me lately can be attributed to this autistic burnout thing. I guess autistics were too powerful and they needed to debuff us, right? (forgive my sad attempt at gamer humor i swear i'm trying) So, apparently autistic burnout is like regular burnout, but it also causes depressive thoughts and feelings and it only happens to autistic people. From what I gather, it occurs when you experience a life-altering event, encounter an insurmountable challenge, are getting tired of masking, and other things. The symptoms? Similar to depression. Suislidal thoughts (i have them and sorry for misspelling, the filter didn't like that) inability to do anything, THE LITERAL WORKS. It can last for weeks. Months! YEARS! Mine has been going on since February 2025 and I'm just NOW learning what it is? WHAT THE HELL?!??!?! I'm going to fail school at this rate. And for context, I go to a school where anything below a C is unacceptable. I HAVE >22 MISSING ASSIGNMENTS THAT IS WAYYYYYY BELOW A GODDARN C!!!!! we are not talking about my ela grade btw it's so bad i can't even And no, I'm not self-diagnosed. I know it's hard to believe because females do not get diagnosed with autism early, but I was professionally diagnosed with autism when I was 8. I have been dealing with this stupid condition since I was 8 and I'm just now learning all the downsides. FIRSTHAND. Yeah. Every day I go to school and do nothing. That's how bad it is. Imagine, non-autistics, being able to handle any curveball thrown at you for your whole life, and then one day you suddenly can't handle ANYTHING and it has been going on like that for almost a year and hasn't let up yet. Anyway, I learned that I can overcome it by trying to stop masking my autism, hanging out with people that accept, understand, and respect my autism, and taking some time off to readjust and make a plan. (And also getting accommodations from school. They said I already had those, but I don't see them. I'm gonna ask next time I see my school social worker.) Also, I read something about how indulging in your interests can help, so I'm looking forward to spending a whole entire day researching and/or playing Donkey Kong. (i love donkey kong <3 ) by the way autistic burnout isn't just affecting my school life. it's affecting every aspect of my life. even scratch. that's why i haven't been posting anything. and why many of my projects have been making minimal progress. So yeah. Now i'm going to go back to wallowing in self-pity until i accept the fact that i won't be able to invite my friend over tomorrow because my dad won't have me home until it's 3:30 PM and that's basically night in the winter and i need to clean my room (it's a dump in there) and i have no overhead light in there so once the sun's gone my light is gone and you should not try cleaning your room in the dark, especially when there are tiny legos all over the floor.