WARNING I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE HECK ILL BE WRITING IN THIS SO READ AT YOUR OWN RISK and also please don't judge 1/21/26 You ever just want to kail one of your family members? Like poof they're gone? I've thought about it more than once. Why does my stupid brain fall for bribery and lies? Is it cause I want to believe it? Also stupid thought of the day/previous days: Does chocolate milk make you awake or tired? 1/24/26 I'm stupid. Found a way to sh though ; Burns. Now all I gotta do is get the determination/resolve to do it, conquer my fear. SH = harm of oneself Jan 28 My music helps me feel better. Gor a poetry competition due today. Worried that my poem is too depressing/mentions a bit of sh. (I almost did it this weekend) I hate shoveling. I hate my mom. She's manipulating me and it's Feb 6 I'm scared. It feels weird to admit it I doubt anyone reads these lol. I told a friend irl a secret. I hope they don't tell anyone else. I'm scared of everything. Scared of being too needy, everything. I'm a coward ngl. Maybe everyone is. I truly envy every character in the books I read Feb 13 Feel like crying. Bcuz of so much stuff That's all. And scratch is being annoying Feb 14 Wish I could k *// people. My parents. Though that probably means I am the problem. So maybe I should be the one who kicks it. Bur I don't want to, or do I I'm indecisive :( back to depression Feb 18 Paused for 5 min ? T-T
