hey, it's me jesh. ..so, there's a lot on my mind.. but i'm gonna make this short.. i've decided i'm gonna take a break for an unknown amount of time. i've been driving myself to the point of insanity.. since September 2025, i've been trying to manage all this. ..and it's hardened my heart, it's made me aggressive and violent.. ..it's made me not the peacemaker i was before. ..CA 4 and all my other projects will be put on halt. ..and i will try to spend more time with God.. or just discover other things than being here slaving away to something that won't even last forever. ..i'm sorry for my behavior. and i hope you all understand. ..with all that being said.. goodbye. i'll see you again sometime. God bless. -Jesh 1/23/26 ok so a little update i feels better but expect me to come back here maybe at around monday or something i dunno ok bye -jesh again
