20. [ " what it means to have purpose " ] - DAISYDARLING SRP PT.2

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[PT. 1: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/1247284402/] [TW FOR LIKE POST BIRTH STUFF!!!] it wasn't regret, just subtle disappointment in herself. because it was a dumb idea to say yes after all, she was pregnant. *very* pregnant. she didn't know how many kits she was gonna have. so juggling 6 other kits? it was a reasonable concern that she had said yes. daisy wasn't gonna go back on that, of course. she already loved those kits like her own. they were hers an- *sho's.* just sho's kits. daisy shook her head. she was auntie daisy to them, just like sho would be aunt star to her kits when they came along. she finished up another little crown of flowers, before rising to her paws, hobbling to the nursery. it wasn't fun, not at all, in fact, she hurt, especially her joints. but she told herself it would all be worth it in the end. however many kits she was carrying, they'd all be beautiful. she couldn't wait to meet them. [ newleaf, 46 moons ] she was exhausted. steam rolled off her golden eyes, her body was aching. but... she saw 8 little kits, kneading at her belly. her breath hitched, before she would sob. not from sadness, but she was so..happy? yes. happy. all 8... were alive. daisy felt so lucky. she's seen cats who lost their kits when they were born, but here were hers, mewling and pushing their little claws into her belly. with the kits drinking milk to their tiny heart's content, daisy knew she had found her purpose. she never saw herself as going down this path, as an apprentice at least. she foresaw it ever so recently as well. but this moment? it just solidified what she knew. she had asked herself, "what did it mean to have purpose, when she couldn't do anything?" this is what it meant. raising the future generations, helping other queens, and watching each of the kits grow up. yes, this is what it means to have purpose, and this had just found it. daisy yawned, steam still rolling up her face. she was so sleepy. with so much effort, would it be wrong to take a nap? daisy closed her eyes with a contented chuff. dozing off... her chest slowly rising up and down... everything would finally be perfect. though there was a problem. she didn't wake up.