(I suggest reading ALL of this) This is a very bad habit that I still have when it comes to scratch and other stuff. I doubt anyone will even see this. Meh.. I only drew something as well as adding low pitched echoing music to make myself feel better.. Call me cringe if you want but that's not gonna affect me anymore. Like I said, I only drew that ugly lil critter for comfort, not because I'm attention seeking or whatev I'm genuinely sorry, AGAIN... I still keep breaking my promises, it's getting the best of me. If you're confused what I mean by this, I'm saying that I've been randomly disappearing from scratch despite claiming that I wouldn't do this again. Luckily this time it was only for 3 months, which is a bit better compared to last time when I went missing on scratch for 7 MONTHS... but still disappointing... I'm not kidding when I said that school's been getting hard for me. I've been trying to focus on other things instead of scratch to take my mind away from the other challenges I'm gonna face when I grow older, such as high school and managing money (maybe?). But school keeps piling me with homework and tests and projects and ughh I can't keep up my legs hurt from all of this. Also life has been kind of mentally draining for me as well. Recently I've been questioning life, but I can't stand pain not even a single paper cut or a slight hit on my right leg (specifically my right leg idk why but every time I bang it on something on accident it hurts so much). And to make matters worse, I have more unrelated stuff to remember than just school and at home. I have to remember stuff and codes for my bank account (I think that's what it is?? That's why I keep forgetting things bruh) I'm just so dumb I feel like I'm behind in life I can't remember anything important. So what was my solution you may ask? JUST ABANDON SCRATCH AND LEAVE EVERYONE IN THE DUST HAHAHAHAHAH!!!HAHAH!HH!AH hughhhhh okay I don't think I'm fine anymore I'm handling with so much burden and I keep reminding myself that things are only gonna get worse in the future. Anyways... I'm sorry for what I have done, again.. It wasn't my bad intention, I've just been struggling to keep myself up and going lately. Oh and uh.. I'm too burnt out to even check the 1676 messages I have lol After typing this, I do feel a bit better, but I might want to take a longer break from scratch before I think about either continuing scratch or officially quitting it. I genuinely enjoy using scratch, but sometimes I gotta get myself away from it. When I feel better and more motivated, I might work on the results for my DTA and most recent CC. IDK about my other older CC but I'll see.... I'm thinking about moving accounts again too but who knows. Anyways, thanks for reading all this. <3
