hi everyone, it’s Muri/Mari first and foremost, happy new year! hope everyone’s had an amazing twenty five days into the year so far. 2025 was probably one of the most hardest years I have endured since 2023. It was a time where I was having some major changes in my life take place and many *many* questions were asked about my sexuality and gender. There were ups and downs for that year, but i think the downs were out weighting the good. For one, gender dysmorphia hit me hard in July and i was genuinely wondering if i could pull off being a guy, but kept it all to myself so I wouldn’t worry anybody about it. I came out as genderfluid later that month but didn’t tell many people since I had an intense fear of having to eventually come out to my family. Two, my mental health took a massive toll in November for reasons I’d rather not disclose on here. It's not anything bad, I just don't feel like spilling my business over a kids coding website lol. I was crying at the most random times of the day. I tried my best to take my mind off from it by occupying my time with various hobbies and it led me to journaling. I finished the first journal four days into the new year and I’m going strong with the new one. I write a new entry just about every day whenever i have the chance. Tbh, it's really therapeutic and a way to get all my thoughts out of my head. Turning away from the bad stuff, I made plenty of new friends who love me for who I am and use my preferred name and pronouns ^_^ . I had so much fun going into my second year of high school, my classes were absolute hell to get through but it's over and done with. (edit 3/12/26 - i have two months left now, so very excited for the summer) Even with the bad stuff that was going on in my life, it had a turn around and things began to get better and i cannot be more thankful for that. I’m happier now than i was two months ago and I’d like to keep it that way. I'm writing/typing this as a reminder that not everything in life is bad, it can always get better with time. Time heals scars, I promise. Just because I'm no only active on Scratch doesn't mean that I'm not gone completely from the internet. I'm active every day, I've just directed myself to other platforms to gain a way bigger audience than this website has to offer. I have a youtube channel where I upload art related stuff (And potential rants + vlogs). anyways, that’s all for now, i might come again at a later date to update you all. have a good one loves !! ♡ - mari youtube channel: https://www.youtube.com/.vampirre
