Being a girl with a narcissistic strict mom and emotionally absent father is not for the weak while also dealing with school, anxiety, mental health, hypersexuality, frequent disassociation, and self-sabotage, so I wrote a song abt it! Hopefully I'm not the only one who feels this way. <333333 also my first like rock/shoegaze song?? hehe. DURATION: 4:12 (10th song of "OSOTS!" ENJOY!)
LYRICS ------------ [VERSE 1] sink ur teeth in me I'm the prey and you're my predator I'm the dinner that you feast if you want the american dream don't go outside and think you'll be safe for doing the right thing [PRE-CHORUS 1] I'm just the side character in my best friends ballad I hate my clothes but I'm too broke to get more I'm a pleasure puppet who gains less than nothing I have decent looks but my attitudes poor [PRE-CHORUS 2] I'm so desensitized to ----- I like me better when I have control I don't really care go and do ur worst it'll just leave me wanting more no more daddy's girl I have to face the world and do things I've never done before no more barbie dolls and drawn-on walls I have to grow up now thats for sure [PRE-CHORUS 3] I'm entitled right? dumb, ugly and polite? I bet you never wanted me I could make do for the night and when you leave again please let me know I don't wanna be the clown in this one man show [CHORUS] oh do I talk to much? or do you tell me to shut up whenever i call ur bluff? are you angry just because I'm right??? well if no one says the truth you'll grow up hearing lies, I'm sorry that you're so stuck up and that you're dying inside when ur acting tough.. and that "confidence" is just ur ego cause it being so easy to break feels so illegal. [VERSE 2] I think I escaped the matrix its time to make my mark walking outside pretending that I'm clean with red lines on my arms they want me to be the best version of myself but I barely know what I'm about so I continue exploring and bare with the rise and the fall [PRE-CHORUS 1] they expect me to have it all figured out I'm like 13 years old god give me a break I'm sorry I don't wanna be a mini version of you but you also didn't give birth to a mistake I'm a burnout, people pleaser, give more take less, I have an alter ego she's the opposite some people are always asking why I eat so I starve myself and decide to eat less [PRE-CHORUS 2] It's all fun and games till u lose ur friends in a continuous cycle never knowing when it ends growing up is hard, maturing is difficult and all ur wishing for is someone nearby to lend a hand documents and notes, story left untold I'm too young to know my purpose but I can do more and everyone around me is tryna bring me down I went from a nobody to the talk of the town [CHORUS] oh do I talk too much? or do you tell me to shut up whenever i call ur bluff? are you angry just because I'm right??? well if no one says the truth you'll grow up hearing lies, I'm sorry that you're so stuck up and that you're dying inside when ur acting tough.. and that "confidence" is just ur ego cause it being so easy to break feels so illegal. [BRIDGE] I think I'm living in a spiral but I don't wanna let others know cause if I ask for help I'll receive less than the help that I give people and in the end it doesn't matter cuz nobody cares, this is my truth and so many are unaware [CHORUS] oh do I talk too much? or do you tell me to shut up whenever i call ur bluff? are you angry just because I'm right??? well if no one says the truth you'll grow up hearing lies, I'm sorry that you're so stuck up and that you're dying inside when ur acting tough.. and that "confidence" is just ur ego cause it being so easy to break feels so illegal.
