Some random gender rant

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Hi! I'm Gravel. I'm pomogender and go by they/it. Idm being called any neos. I'm AFAB and in the closet to my family. I got called a he today in Minecraft chat, and honestly I was glad that I didn't get called a she. Pomogender is a strange thing. I learned about the word from Baxtor ( @AlexanderHamilton-_ ) and I searched it up. As soon as I read the definition, I was like "Ohhhhhh. Yeah, that's me lol." I don't feel defined by any gender, or feel like a gender in particular. It's not quite like agender, where you are genderless, or like gender apathetic, where you don't care about gender. Instead, I feel like I'm something out of any of the binarys, even the non-binarys. No pronouns really fit me, but they/them and it/its feel close enough. Now. Sexuality. Sexuality.. is hard. I've only ever had one crush, in truth. Last year I was hanging out with my friend who I'll call Deepslate. A few weeks later, I realized that oh my god, I liked Deepslate. This wouldn't have been a big shock, except... Deepslate was a girl. I was also a girl. Deepslate was a straight Christian girl. Ehh... so I told my buddy. Buddy told me to tell her. I am already a socially awkward, flustered mess around most people. It was so dam CRINGE how I acted around Deepslate TvT. So a while later, my buddy's boyfriend and I (and my Buddy) were chilling. And suddenly my other "friend" who I'll call Cobblestone just suddenly said, 'I know who Gravel's crush is. It's Deepslate.' And I was actually so red I swear. Back in class, in lunch, I was on Deepslate's table along with her buddies. Buddy's boyfriend said from the table behind me, 'I think I know who Gravel has a crush on.' The gossipy girls said, 'Omg! Is it (insert a random boy who has beaten me up several times)?!' Buddy's bf whispers to them and the girls suddenly shriek, 'DEEPSLATE?!' I was actually staring down at my sandwich as if I was expecting it to punt the girls away- The rest of that lunch was awkward, to say the least. I stayed off school for a few days and came back and everyone had forgotten. Now, since then, I've found some people attractive but never enough to actually have a crush on them. Sexuality was way too confusing to me, even now. None of the labels we've stuck on attraction feel like me. So I am quoisexual. Yay fancy word. Pronounced koi-sexual btw. My friends (such as Cobblestone, who thinks bisexual is a gender) are not all that knowledgeable in attraction, so I've just told them I'm gay. I tried to explain and I gave up midway through lol. Thanks for coming to my tedtalk. Yay. Tell me if you want more story times in the comments! :)