( song inspo ; lover girl , laufey ) i learned love like a language no one else studied - memorized every word just to speak it alone. i romanticized the waiting, called it patience, called it devotion, called it anything but what it was: being invisible on purpose. i made excuses for silence, folded my needs into smaller shapes, told myself this is what lover girls and boys do, they ache quietly, they hope beautifully, they lose with grace. i loved you in hypotheticals, in almost 's, in songs that sounded like confessions but weren’t brave enough to be. you never asked me to disappear, but i did --- because loving you felt better than being loved halfway. now i sit with all this softness and nowhere to put it. a heart dressed for a dance that never happens. if loving like this is foolish, then let me be foolish. but please . let it be known i loved honestly, even when it hurt more than it healed.
