look at my comment first mkay? thank yeww . . . SADNESS [ sad-ness ] noun i.e. a basic emotion characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, despair, helplessness, and sorrow. It is a natural, temporary response to painful or disappointing situations, sometimes triggered by the loss of a valued person . . . they were supposed to grow old together. share inside jokes together. giggle and lean against each other as they watched their tiny kits run around the nursery. they were supposed to watch the sunset every night together. they were supposed to /be/ together. soulmates. that’s what they were. meeting when they were so little, until Death stole him away at sixteen moons she rather disliked Death. it stole so many of her loves. her brother, too many of her friends, even Delphine, who wasn’t really dead, but left a gap too wide to fill her heart. the perfect cat, but not enough time. she would do anything to rewind, go back a few months to spend more time with him, stop him from going into that fight. maybe she could’ve. maybe she just didn’t try hard enough. was it her fault? she would give up every one of her lives, again and again. endure any pain that the afterlife threw at her to spend one more second with her love. one of the problems? her heart was so full of love, but no one to murmur it to. eyes full of tears and she finally found something to make them them fall. she wanted to hug someone, but when she reached out, the only thing she grasped was the empty air. she had so many friends, too many to count. but there wasn’t another /him/. she would she find another him? she didn’t even know if she could. the moment she got the news, her heart broke in two. one half was still beating, barely, but the other half, /his/ half, disappeared. she prayed, looking to the sky and whispering everything that she wanted. the thing that she wanted. him. just bring him back, let her hold him one more time, then maybe she could be selfish and hold him more. why won’t they let her be selfish? please. please. PLEASE. it was all she wanted. she would give up everything she had, everyone she had ever met. just to be able to be able to hold him. no one else mattered. no one else was the half of her heart, her body, her soul, that kept it functioning. if she ever lost her memory, she wouldn’t forget him. the way he smiled when she walked to him. how he always made /her smile/, or the way he blushed when she complimented him. the laughs they had shared, and how some of his first words to her had been how big his ears were. they had played a game that day. and little her didn’t know how much she would grow to love him. they had only been together two moons. they were so young. but that didn’t matter. when you found someone that was /that/ special, you didn’t doubt whether it was true love. you felt it. not just in your heart. everything. you just knew that they were the one. and she felt that for him. stronger than she ever had. he was the one to make her happy, not sad. he was the one who made her smile, not frown. so what was happening now? why wasn’t he here to make her giggle, like she always did. she was supposed to laugh. she was supposed to hug cats. but in this moment, she couldn’t find a reason to would she ever find a reason to?
