No..I'm not quitting...I think. Look..I'm tired ok? Everyone I know here are dropping like flies due to scratches new TOS or there just leaving for bigger places. To be honest..I'm losing inspiration and time. I keep setting goals and have project ideas but...I don't have the time or motivation to continue them or even start them. I'm losing motivation on..almost everything. Just putting on a smile or enjoying whatever happiness I have left with the people I surround myself irl But...scratch is dieing, orion studios is almost silent..and I'm exhausted trying to keep things together. If I'm needed to do an ep for a show I'm in I'll hop on and do it...but right now I'm just done. Nothing really matters, and I'm trying to hold on to whatever light I have left... In the future, if my mental health gets better, I'll try to continue my stories and projects. ...right now everything seems pointless..even irl is starting to seem pointless again but...could just be in my head ...I never know anymore...I'm sorry.. ...happiness or that feeling of being alive always leaves..I don't want it to leave, I'm trying...God I really am..trying to see the future in a brighter point of view but..I'm just so used to the negative that's all I think about. I have the best thing in my life right now but all I can see is how I can screw it up...I'm just a screw up, even when others say I'm not. ..it's all I see...just flaws and stupied thoughts Another thing is that my stress levels are going up along with my heart rate. To many of my friends are thinking about crossing the other side and I'm losing it...I'm trying to not do that but..death is starting to surround me, I'm useless, I can't help anyone anymore...because i can't even help myself ...so I'll see you when I see you..if I can keep holding myself together...but living just sucks and my motivation for anything is almost depleted.
I'll still comment here and there...but the projects are coming to a hault.. But...don't contact me unless I'm seriously needed for somthing (like show business and all that)
