At the time of my last post, I had big plans on the projects I wanted to create. Games, art, animations, you name it. It's been five months, and what have I accomplished? Absolutely nothing. I imagine how my future project in great detail, but then I lose motivation faster than you can say "procrastination." On top of that, school has become increasingly overwhelming. What really pains me is my art. I desperately want to draw again. But every time I pick up a pencil, my mind goes blank. It's always a bald face, eyes, or some weird scribble. I have no clue what to draw anymore. And if I manage to think of something, I end up hating my work anyways. Even just drawing this simple thumbnail felt so mentally draining, and I almost resorted to drawing a frowning stick figure. I feel sad because drawing was what I was best at, and if I can't do that anymore . . . But I do feel a small sense of accomplishment at drawing my bear OC on the thumbnail, even though it's mostly muscle memory from having drawn him in that pose before. I don't know when I'll post again, but it'll probably have to be super small simple stuff like this thumbnail until I get out of this rut.
If you want to see some sketches of my dog, Maple, they're inside. From the good ol' days ofc . . . I can't draw like this now :(