Devourers of content since birth Conditions under which we learn Shifting patterns likes scales on snakes Scale up and higher, higher stakes This propagates, alarming rates Destabilizing mental states On surface, skates Disturb with pace Carve into space While cost awaits Leagues beyond words Thoughts unheard By some other things of earth Leaves fall, wind-caught beset by rot and not distraught or not, in knots of assumptions lots of disruption Corruption natural destruction reconstruction, adaptation seek reduction of frustration expression or elation or whatever situation argh argh argh argh what to say? I could say anything Change the way I'm perceived the way I think Or entice you to think Or entice you to cringe Or entice you to judge Inspiration to copy To chop me Cut down and Denounce Make renowned or ignore Or just pounce and attack me distract me attract me Or slap me (I focus on this, but why do I?) Your eyes all unreadable behind screens and comments and doomscrolls anonymous loopholes the usual confusion The fusion of worlds clashing, war and opportunity chaos in unity (irony) What's even true to me? What could this do to me? What could get through to me? Could this thing ruin me (ruin’s a strong word)? what might it prove to me? Blind where these clues could lead Wary of ruminating (irony, irony) I watch what I'm doing Some of it The thoughts I am loosening You could watch what I'm doing Some of it Not a new thing to me Government of my mentality Shoving it back I'm reviewing What track am I on, what do I lack, where am I strong? What's driving me? What am I pursuing? Or am I still running from what I'm becoming? From acting on something? These spirals and habits of mine Well, I'm trying, my mind tells me I could use some help Ah, hell, constantly working on myself overworking myself Cognitive and emotional Overwhelm Screaming intensity to my sensitivity The sheer density of my thoughts and feelings I'm wrought with Let yourself process Breathe through the darkness I'll try to grow healthier, small steps Regardless of losses Keep going, you've got this Fought for so long You're weak and you're strong It's natural that you are struggling You know you're more than the things that you think you are You know you're more than mistakes you have taken hard You know you're more than the weight of a shaken heart You can reform and adapt, take some chains apart Live with the weight in some healthier ways You don't have to keep taking it all on your own This is your wake up call to stop staying locked in your comfort zone Like “I can take it” well, maybe you can but it might take a toll on you That might have been able to be reduced maybe there are people who'd help you remove the noose handle what's choking you in ways that aren't self-ab*se healthy, choose-
