Click flag and read V V V Alsoooo, I can explain why I depicted Jesus as a lion... #1, Lion of Judah, and #2, even unless it's anime, I'm borderline incapable of drawing humanoids xD Sidenote: LOL I just realized I forgot to put the code for the song x'D Just did, just tested it, and oh my gosh, I am actually like sobbing rn T^T
Scratch, me, God all the way, and Colbie Caillat First off, oh my goodness, I'M SO SORRY this is late!! I totally would've tried harder to get this out on the actual day of Valentine's Day, but if I'm really being honest... I wasn't sure if I had the strength. I'm still in the middle of trying to break through this raging hurricane called all the caged thoughts and feelings in my brain and the pressure I'm putting on myself for a few things. And the fact that once again, I'd cut it so close for Valentine's Day that my gifts were going to be last-minute (AGAIN -_-), was NOT helping. Of all things, this was getting to me the most, even just trying to figure out how the heck I was gonna do this project. Well, Valentine's Day went well, but later that night, I had a breakdown around 11:00 PM. I was seriously hoping to play some sort of special song on my guitar this year- that would've been my "happy Valentine's" to God. Oh yes- when you really get to know God, it's stuff like this you hate letting pass by! But I've been doubting parts of who He's made me to be and at war with myself so much lately I despaired. What "perfect gift" can man possibly offer God!? But I gotta say it, this has to be His perfect timing once again: the next day, Sunday, an old church friend RAK'ed me and my sis with post-Valentine's Day gifts. In all the candy and nick-knacks in that small bag, the card is something I'll cherish forever. The moment I was alone in my room, I opened it, and inside, the very top on the left side was titled, "Jesus Says To You On Valentine's:". I saved the best part of the day for last, and it was more than worth it. I tell you what, that was written by God through the human hand holding the pen. These are the final lines: "I gave you My life so that you might live forever with me. All I ask in return is for your love. Be My Valentine Love Jesus <3" And there's a little P.S. after that, but as I'm rereading to write this, just like that night, I feel an overwhelming peace and like I could just start SOBBING at the same time. I was so focused on trying to figure out how to express my affections, I forgot a simple "I love you" was an option. It was around 12:30 past midnight when I finally read the card. It was about 1:20 AM when I'd finished pouring out a prayer of love and gratitude (and good words for those special Scratchers I mentioned ;) ) to my Heavenly Daddy! So whether it's a card, chocolates, dinner at a restaraunt, or even a simple "Happy Valentine's" at the end of the day, gifts don't have to be elaborate to mean something special or sincere. And you don't even have to have a gift- the gift can be you. Just you. Simply being there with someone can let them know you care- it doesn't have to be perfect to be good. And above all else, God loves you. Every messy, broken, beautiful part of you. That's part of what I'm still wrestling with- I get lost in thinking who He's made me to be and how I express myself isn't enough! Like, excuse me F.E.A.R.!? I'm hoping and praying, from looks to the gifts He's given you personally, from the inside out, once you realize how much God loves the amazing real you He made you to be, and once you know it, I'm begging you (and I'm begging me), believe it, guys. Don't ever let that go. Even more so, He loves you always, and I can say without a doubt in the most mind-blowing ways you never knew- and know that no matter how you love Him back, it's a precious and beautiful thing in His sight. Don't forget to give Him some love today- and that you are valuable, one of a kind, and deeply beloved! Happy late Valentine's, God bless <3
