Cw) gr00m1ng , sue her slide , SA , racism I’m so tired mentally and physically. I hate them I hate both of them two years and two months I took it, two years and two months I was isolated from my friends and family. I hate it. I don’t want to remember anything the thoughts were getting worse , people are making it worse with racist remarks and other stuff I don’t even wanna bring up. I still remember what happened in 5th grade him grabbing my chest holding my neck having to physically fight back and having to fight him to make sure my friend was safe I hate it. I feel so unsure of myself and I hate it, the voices in my head feel loud and quiet. I wish I was better but I can’t. I wanna be a good person but the thoughts get worse and I hurt people I’m exhausted. I feel inhuman and human ar rhe same time I’m so confused on who and what I am. I know I’m a system I but it’s just making things worse on some days. I don’t know how long I’ll have this point it feels I have to distance myself from everyone maybe distancing myself is the best thing I can do to help people I love. The ocs I make are my only coping mechanism atp
