What is it really? I've been on scratch for nearly 3 years yet i dont even have one full page of followers. Barely anyone knows who I am. My most popular game only has 240 views. My nation that I lead barely hosts events and when they do no one ever joins. Is it all worthless? I applied for the mentor program but considering my history I won't get in, I think I won't get in. Freaking EdgeOfTheUniverse got in! And they're so creative and artistic. ST doesn't even know how I am. To them i'm just another scratcher thinking I'll get in. Whats the point really? My grandfather was a great man and fought in the Futbol war of El Salvador to defend his town (LA PAZ!). My father and mother escaped El Salvador int he middle of the civil war. My father himself witnessed people get attacked by the army during the war. My mother survived bombs on her house dropped by the Army. But what have I done thats so good? Closest I've done is lead a virtual army of people against a character who doesn't even exist in scratch (Sophia the 2nd and the PUNS army against Izzy war). I want to change this website, but I know I can't. It feels overwhelming to know that you yourself are underwhelming. If I left scratch today no one would notice. Grifftopia wouldnt search for me. Gaehive wouldn't chatter about me. And the PUNS certainly wouldn't manage themselves. So why bother with scratch? I don't know. Im figuring it out right now. I might leave forever or return soon. The mentor program will decide if I say or not. I just came here to vent to you all about things that don't even matter.
