~ I'm Scared That I'm Going to Offend Someone and Get Mass Reported For Saying This ~ I’m just not really used to being around trans people, so sometimes I feel a bit awkward or nervous. It’s mostly that I worry about saying the wrong thing or messing up socially, not that I have anything against them. I think it just comes from unfamiliarity and overthinking more than anything else, and I’m still learning.
My dad also is very opinionated about the Trans community saying that they are all "mentally ill" or "something clearly wrong with [them] psychologically". My school, an art school is naturally full of universals that are out-of-the-ordinary; including an overwhelming percentage being a part of adjacent to the LGBT+ community (I'd say close to 80%). I'm not liked in my school and am often looked at or talked about behind my back for 'being transphobic' or 'homophobic' and sometimes so much that I burst into tears or have a full anxiety attack. when I was 11 I had a very traumatic experience with another girl while I was questioning my sexuality. this experience forever broke the way I see anyone who is attracted to me besides Cisgender males. I feel so dirty and ashamed of myself even though I know it isn't my fault.. I guess I'm looking for reassuring words or people that do identify as trans to validate me since this eats me up inside and I just hate myself since I feel like a villain.
