i feel too young to be nostalgic but i shall proceed. an eleven year old, sick at home. she opens her mother's old computer, the one she was sick of not working properly. she remembered playing geometry dash on an online site called "scratch" in school. she remember seeing animation memes in choir, which at that point was just study hall with music in the background. she had gotten into art very recently and wanted to be an animator. so she looked up some animations and played them. for hours on end. it was addicting and it calmed her a lot. a twelve year old who got her own computer. the first thing she does is open her personal email and sign up on scratch. she recalled a spelling be word, one she thought sounded funny. "hoi polloi". that was it. she joined some studios, made a project celebrating her first two followers and thought that would be it. but while looking through a scratcher's projects a bit later, she stumbled upon a bio for a roleplay. which was when she fell into the rabbit hole of roleplays. she made some friends along the way and the rest was history. i honestly find it surprising, seeing how i've improved so much since i joined. i went from wanting to quit drawing and having bad writers block to whatever this is now. i nearly cried writing this. i sorta feel as if i want to go back in time and be /oi/, not /mizuki/. i think i was happier back then. now i just feel nothing sometimes. i want to use scratch as a coding site and post my art on it. heck, i lost touch with my favorite fandom and i feel so empty. but i love this new person at the same time. they have been through quite a lot through these almost 2 years and i love myself for it. so i want to thank some people. @GT347029BYR for being my first friend on here. we've both learned a lot and i love that you're back here again. @WD713 for also being another one of my first friends <3 i would love to talk to you more about wcrps and i may join that one you've shown me @_-Xrose-bobaX-_ you are a great friend and i love roleplaying with you and you've taught me a lot <3 i would like to talk to you more often. @wolfdragoncatthingy ember i miss you so much! you were the first person to roleplay with me and i am so thankful we are friends. i hope you're doing okay irl, because real life is more important than this silly little site. sonia i miss you so freaking much and it honestly brings me to tears when i realize that there is no way for us to talk anymore </3 you have inspired me a lot and i have grown as an artist inspired by you! i wish we can talk once more someday. you've been my biggest inspo ever and i strive to be just as good as drawing as you. i want you to always take care of yourself. i believe that you have every right to have taken that hiatus and you're back now and all i can say is that i don't want you to do things you feel that you've outgrown. i poured my corny heart out but i feel better.
