hey uhm. i normally dont post anything like this but i fear it needs to be said before anything bad happens to me. this year did not start how i expected it t be, ts been the worst begginning ever and i have not considered commiting [redeated] this harsh before. ive fought with my mom too many times, my friends left me, my closest friend hates me and is ignoring me when all i want to do is talk so we can be friends again and I'm being left out of everything knowing damn well I don't like being left out of anything because it makes me freak out. and all i have left is @psychoDONUT. now were celebrating scotland forevers 2nd anniverary and its just hard to eve think about it considering its what made us three: @psychodonut, the white cat (i fear they might get on me for mentioning them :( ) and me closer then ever as friends and it lost its meaning. I just hope this can all be resolved, I just don't know how to do that if they just keep ignoring me. and i messed it all up. but my point is, im not going ok mentaly if anything, I'm deeper then mentally not ok, I have ate in at least 2 days, I don't even sleep anymore, I have to alter my sleep thingy so no one suspects a thing, I have to try my best not to mess up my arm. i have never been this bad before, so my uploads will be slow. very slow. im going to upload 2 more today but thats all. im sorry
