i havent been active and luckily it doesnt revolve around darker and heavier thoughts. however, i feel like im outgrowing this site. my declining activity was just a start. i still draw but at my own pace since i cant handle drawing multiple pieces at once for trades, pays, etc.. drawing now feels more like a requirement and it genuinely pmo. when i first started scratch, i gen enjoyed talking with other people and making art + animations.. .. but now? every time i draw or try to animate something, i feel empty. im also in my first year of high school ( freshman ) and it is not easy. im getting bombed with essays and projects that i cant handle. trying to make time for scratch is sadly placing a lot of pressure. i need to manage my time better and it's even harder since i sacrifice 3-5 hours a day after school at my j*b. yes im employed i need to buy my own textbooks and stuff. since i was little, i srs wanted to take art as a professional line of employment. now? i feel as if im more attracted towards psychology and law. drawing isnt a major part in those professional fields. i want to be able to focus on my future and my well-being. so im taking a long, indefinite beak. maybe a possible leave. my friend was kind enough to check my profile page if there was anything major going on but nothing too bad happened. i didnt check the site myself because i felt like if i came back, i wouldnt be able to leave. ive also been dealing with a version of depression. if youve known be for a while, you would know i had a lot of family drama. it's safe to say that it is now sorted out however, it's impossible to heal immediantly. it takes time, effort, and a large amount of therapy. so, thats the end ig. farewell scratch. ** not replying to messages. i wont be deleting my acc just in case i ever feel to need to check in if/when my schedule clears. also i mighttt be writing a book rn heh.. I might come back now and then and drop appropriate chapters because my rough draft of it includes A LOT of death and a bit of romance gulp**
also ill do check-ins like every 1-3 weeks or so
