so yeah it has been confirmed that my ex-friend WAS just pretending to comfort me only to leak the dms to everyone in his server when I posted my last project, I only strongly suspected, but it's been confirmed since then. according to someone who was there and part of the problem (that I am now on good terms with, as she realized the error of her ways), he was leaking the dms so that people would bully me for being vulnerable. And they DID. hahahahaha all the people who victimized themselves in this situation made fun of me when I was being manipulated and also allowed it but noooo I'm the one in the wrong hahahahahaha I'MMMM the one who owes them all an apology lolollololololololol THEY'RE the ones who are completely innocent oh and also I reached out to someone who is friends with one of the people who allowed me to manipulated by my ex-friend and also made fun of me for it. before I told him about that, I asked if they had said anything about me. He said no, and that he was just uncomfortable with how I used Lynx (this was on a roleplay site, and I tended to lean towards rps where he would get hurt). Oh and also, this friend of them didn't respond to me saying that and has not even acknowledged it as far as I know fun times This has led me to believe that the person said this to villainize me further, making it seem like maybe I had crashed out on them over them just expressing their "discomfort" (in reality it was a serious situation), as they never bothered to reach out and TELL ME that they were uncomfortable. Not to mention that I was uncomfortable with stuff they were saying about my ex-friend's oc (I definitely can't say it here) and I EXPRESSED it CLEARLY and THEY didn't apologize, so idk why they expect me to. Another friend of mine blocked them because... they're allowed to, and when they unblocked them, this person also yelled at them and said it "hurt their feelings" and made them feel guilty and stuff. They just seem to be having a power trip over me and my friend, and it doesn't help that their partner doesn't acknowledge their behavior AT ALL. Allowing someone to be manipulated and make fun of them for it? Well, um, its okay because I cussed out their partner so I OBVIOUSLY deserve this /sar like I feel like I'm taking crazy pills I know that they allowed me to be manipulated and that they're tripping power over me and THEY KNOW they could ruin my reputation like THAT and everyone is like "omg you're so sweet why would anyone block you" NO THEY ARENT lol its always "believe the victim!" until it's me because when it's me I'm just "shifting the blame" or "playing the victim" LIKE NO I ALREADY ACCEPTED WHAT I DID WAS WRONG AND APOLOGIZED TO THEM FOR IT WHILE THEY HAVENT APOLOGIZED FOR ANYTHING THEY DID TO ME THAT IS OBJECTIVELY WORSE THAN ME CUSSING THEM OUT LIKE
