abt time we bring this chain back no? yes i remixed a project that remixed mine BUT SHUSH THIS DAY WAS HORRIBLE
if you paid attention to my status project you SHOULD KNOW WHAT HAPPENED if not here's an explanation: I cant explain EVERYTHING that happened (bc i need to comply with scratch ToS) but it was bc of stress silently piling up until i broke on an assignment i couldn't finish. i was given extra time but then a very not halal mode kid saw my disheveled and fragile state and decided it was a WONDERFUL IDEA to set off my fight or flight response by MOCKING me this is when the true meltdown happened i yelled something out of frustration and suddenly BOLTED. i had lost full comprehension of what was going on anymore, and i had shoved myself outside the front office doors and lashed out on myself, bursting into tears shortly after. to make matters worse my mom found out after school and i was grounded for a month bc she was angry and scared, and i ended up UGLY CRYING out of pure unadulterated SHAME and SORROW. and then my dad found out but he wasn't mad, just disappointed thats when the numbness and rue kicked in for an hour i couldn't process sadness or anger. i was emotionally exhausted and NEEDED a break to stay sane after talking with gpt for a while (dont judge me they lwk be a good therapist sometimes) the numbness slowly faded, revealing the painful rue as i finally made sense of what happened. the rue lasted until noon of the next day, when i was eventually able to cheer up during a band competition. was what i did wrong? yes and no it definitely could've been handled better, but can you really blame me when stress was piling up without my awareness? im fine now btw js i still think about this moment and it still sometimes brings tears to my eyes (which is why it's technically considered a traumatic event bc im still processing it even 10 days later) but i've learned and i've grown now i just need to learn how to forgive and forget it's tough, but im working on it trust c2a
