─•──── ? ᯓ★Ready? Start!ᯓ★ ꒰ঌ ໒꒱"Welcome to my second vlog project! I'll be sharing vents, life updates, small joys and more here. If you don't want to hear any vents or if you're just not supportive of those things, you can move on to something else, I won't be name-dropping in vents and trigger warning for things of the general criteria (I'm likely unable to state it here)"꒰ঌ ໒꒱ ♡ ┊꒱ ‣Update of the day!» If I have responded to any of your messages, I'm very very sorry, I am active and I do see them but sometimes st gets extremely finicky and won't let me respond so it takes me a little while. I've also have been having a lot less energy than normal so please bear with me. It's now around 23-22 days until my birthday and I was thinking what to post on my birthday, but that day will be a busy day since I have dance class, outings planned and whatnot. So maybe I'll post something before or after. Maybe after to show my mall hauls and stuff and the outfits I'm getting from Honeywardrobe. ♡ ┊꒱ ‣Good news of the day!» I've been in a pretty good mood lately thanks to my one very special friend @maihime- (Elise). Special shout out to him for making me feel cared for and appreciated, I can say anything and be my true self and tell him the things I think of without any filter and he'll never bat an eye. I cherish him greatly and he always knows how to make me feel better. He's been here with me since around three years ago and I've never really had a friend for that long (except for Izzy hehe shout out to @Pink_ArtFlame) and he still has stayed around until this day throughout everything and I thank him so much for that. I'll probably start making some pfps and banners soon maybe, I make them on magma. They don't take a lot of time to make (unless I'm busy), I'm going to post a reference proof the ones that I have done before on my old accounts (not linking them).
૮Ꮚ ┊ ꒱ ‣Vent of the day!» I wonder if I still have meaning to my name when it comes to you. You still hold so many things I remember. You meant so much to me. You still do. The hardest part about wanting to forget how it was loving you was forgetting every detail I had memorized. Your favorite scent, song, clothing style. Your birthday, your secrets, everything. I sometimes wish it was the way it was waaay back then. I miss it more than anything. Being somewhat content, having my first gf ever. I was very excited. I wanted to protect that bond with my life. It hurts most knowing that I severed the bond I always wanted my whole life. I remember that day of homecoming, I think you said something about having a bad night. Me and my friend made homecoming presents and decorated slides with activities to make you feel better. I never got to show you. I feel upset at myself with you, I'm sure you hate my guts but you still care enough to want to hold meaning to my name, you care enough to be nice, I'm mainly upset because I don't know how to feel. I believe you completely, but at the same time I'm just unsettled with how much time has passed without you. Your sudden reappearance only surprised me because I was sure you would have no intentions of talking to me but now I wonder if you did really miss me. Did you really? But now that I see that you have had nothing more to say even after reconnecting, maybe we've become strangers that know each other too well. Im uncomfortable with that thought. Maybe I'm even more uncomfortable with the thought that I missed the nostalgia of your presence. It's so hard to forget and incredibly hard to let go of. I miss when it was simpler though. When I was told I was loved and I felt safe enough with you to plan my entire life with you. The good things were nice to remember. But at what cost? Remembering at all put me into a conflict of whether I was worth something or not. I knew it would be this way but I truly enjoyed the good times I did have with you. But i wonder if it will be the same. My head hurts thinking about it. I'll continue on with my life with someone new one day, you already have someone new, so I think we are fair now. I still don't know how to feel about you. I'm not mad or sad though. Maybe I'm just conflicted. You're a good person though. You don't have bad intentions, right? So maybe you'll treat me well. If there's another chance for us, for as many times as we'll forgive each other, everything won't be bad, right? Or am I starved of intensity and attachment again. Am I gullible? Am I craving something that can hurt worse than leaving? ⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ ☆Tysm for viewing my second vlog post here! Here are mentioned people! Elise () Izzy () I'll be active so don't be afraid to message or comment, I'm active on this account and on DC ! have an amazing day/night/evening or something and I'll be here laterrr!!! Byeyayay ヾ(*'▽'*)
