Instructions: Click/space/any Song: Song For My Lost Ghost Friends - spellcasting Sorry for weird background, was testing something out, it kinda failed Ignore: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ea6JCPUfito https://www.youtube.com/@NexMindOfficial1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgFaK6ZQifE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUxH1zN0yOc https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4Z2rVY8i6Y https://www.youtube.com/shorts/GYB-U3OxD4k https://www.youtube.com/shorts/p2_OMEPgA_g https://www.youtube.com/shorts/RmKRNWM8HDo https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dtu8HU0kXio https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pOlGabO4iC4
Notes and Credits: This past year has brought upon a lot of changes, both good and bad I finally got an (un)official girlfriend/wife who isn't actually someone who I call wife just for funsies now!!!! she adores me it wasn't an ideal relationship, and I don't spend as much time with her as I'd like due to me being busy, I didn't even get to see her on Valentine's due to her personal health problems, but fortunately she is doing alright and I will see her soon. I wish I could have visited her, I still feel so guilty about it But a few days ago I was at the grocery store, a man went up to me, I hadn't seen him in a while as I had seen him a few months ago, and he asked me how I was doing, and that despite me having not met him in several months, he was still thinking about me. I briefly told him about my school life and he put his hand on my shoulder as he listened, before helping me find my sprinkles ^_^ I waved byebye to him and kept stealing glances at him and I saw him looking at me too!!! so embarrassing ackkckk I came across him again, I told him it was my birthday soon. He held out his hand for me to hold before I smiled at him congratulating me, then he told me "Well, it was nice talking to you kiddo, but I have to work now" lowkey I crumbled inside, since I was thinking about him a lot his hand was strangely ... not wrinkled, for an old man. his hands were rough, yes, and his arms were muscular, but I don't know it really wasn't what I was expecting I ran away to my mom out of embarrassment and nervousness. I almost cried thinking about him, why is he so nice to me? My sister said it was kinda creepy since he was much older than me, probably in his 50s, greying even, but I don't care, I just love knowing the fact that people think I'm pretty, especially older men (I still need to tell this to HER), I wish I asked for his socials or something. I was thinking about him all day. I know all he did was offer to help me find the cooking materials I was looking for, but goodness.. I wish more men treated me like that. i'll probably draw him soon he was so beautiful The funny part is that I was literally dressed like an E-girl, with my messy side bangs and t-shirt over long sleeve with black cargo pants, and I still had a significantly older and muscular man calling me that Gah I'm swoooooning god god he was so beautiful, his eyes and all I really have a thing for older, tall, and muscular men with facial hair n like. not balding uhm my girlfriend is prettier though!!! She is beautiful like the radiant moon and I love her face and her sweet smile and her eyes :D I swear I'm faithful to her... trust... I'm the best husband ever!!!! Anyway, today we went to a few places :D not gonna say exactly for the sake of my privacy lol, but we had yummyyyy food!! om nom nom My friends were super nice to me I like love them very much SHEEEE was saying we could go to the nearest bookstore to hang out :) still waiting for her to get better, and for the SAT and holy month to pass and then we'll do it!!! Additionally I've learned something new about myself?? I used to think this was anger issues due to being in a household with someone who had prominent anger issues, but, I externalize trauma (not really trauma, just more so stress) and let it out with aggression or defiance over hurting oneself, which, according to some people I know, is "healthier," which I disagree with. id rather push the pain onto someone else over myself, even if I'm usually too much of a coward to do so. I'm weak I can't deal with my emotions alone This explains the significant amount of negative posts I have been making, I'll try not to do those too much, even if it is normally how I deal with my emotions - that, or talking to people about it https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/your-emotional-meter/202504/are-you-an-external-or-internal-processor This is interesting, and I'd like to reserve it for the future I've been playing DDLC, I really like Yuri :) She's so pretty, with her long hair and everything.. eeee. Also been getting into some other video games, although it's not that entertaining tbh lol. How do people keep up with so many video games? Idk Anyway, I'm really tired right now >.<
