(tw: self-hatred ig) to you, the one who stayed to be disappointed if i say "i don't know" i don't know no, i can't explain why to you i don't even know why i'm sorry nothing i do will ever be enough i see what you tell others about me, your own child i know how you judge me and you, the one who ran to not be missed if you wanted to be in my life, you shouldn't have left you don't get to leave me then act all offended when i don't respond to a text for 20 min about plans you want to make the night before what's your excuse for never being there when i need, only when you want what's your excuse for going on fancy trips to Europe, and not paying for your child's life and you, the one i hate most why would you matter to anyone she'll never love you, just like you'll never love yourself you aren't happy, you're pretending your "friends" hate you, and they're right why exist just to fail everyone why even try anymore why not just... fade into the background be the quiet person they want you to be stop asking questions, stop feeling depressed, stop trying to love when you know it doesn't work, just stop you'll never matter, and nothing you do will change that so keep smiling keep laughing keep acting like your life is still happy keep crying when you're alone keep feeling incomplete keep letting the dark thoughts win you're just a loser suck. it. up. ... headspace isn't too great rn. life sucks. ill probably unshare this. y'all don't need to worry about me. im fine.
