*＊✿❀ I was literally having a great day until they barged into my room while I was trying to put my flag up on my wall and yell at me for my grades then threaten me to send me away at the end of the year if I don't get them up❀✿＊*
(Talking abt my Mom and Step dad) Tried telling them I struggle with dissociation and that because I cant myself in the future and going on in life that I struggle to keep with goals in life..and my mom told me "you have no idea what dissociation is", and this is the day where they took me and my sisters ice skating for the first time..then they hear me in the back still sniffling and my mom asks me "why are you still crying?"...as we just got in the car not that long ago...LIKE MY BAD FOR HAVING HUMAN EMOTIONS!?, They kept asking me "well what do you want us to do?"..Um..I don't know...MAYBE ACKNOWLEDGE WHAT YOU SAY IS EXTREMELY DAMAGING TO ME!?..LIKE WHY AM I THE ONE WHO CANT EXPRESS THEIR OWN EMOTIONS IN THIS HOUSE!?..SHOULD'VE PACKED MY BAGS AND LEFT ALL THE TIMES THEY'VE TOLD ME TO JUST TO TRY AND PROVE THEIR POINT!?...(Idk maybe I'm being over dramatic I just don't want to be discarded like how my abusive biological father abandoned me because he didn't want to "waste" his money on his own children just for simple necessities, I don't want to be reminded of how useless I feel like I did as a child)
