Hey. Volge here. It's been over a year and a half ago since I did "something" in a place that I haven't forgotten. I had cause a scene for myself which had gotten me out of there. Realizing that moment today, it wasn't anything else's fault. It was mine for making it more trouble than it already was. I had blame apart of me, not exactly myself. Part of me wants to go back in and fix what I had done yet another part wants me to soak all the hate in. I feel terrible about it, even up to today. If I had kept that ONE thing to myself, where would I be now? I don't know. Maybe a little better than now at least. It's best for me to take a closer look into myself, see what I've done wrong, needed to fix, etc. I'm just in a mediocre spot, needed to let this out.
If you were someone that had been part of this, this isn't some " oh im sorry now can i join back " type of thing. I'd rather sit out of the bench a little longer to see more of what I can fix in myself. I don't expect anything apologetic from anyone.
