i don't know where it's going from here..,., if you seen my recent posts,.,, you should know whats going on.. at this point,.. i don't know if i'll ever find anybody. i'm.... completely alone now.,., from how it seems.,. i've insulted some.,,. i've annoyed some.,. some just.., plain left.,,. w1ll 1 di3 4lone as 1 s4y i will? ...egh... the one thing though... thats gave me the tiniest bit of happiness... is the few people left following me and being supporting in all of this... i haven't ignored any of that.... <3 it's just been really difficult and trying.,. cuz,.,. everyone left me now in the grand scheme of things.,,. and my parents aren't very accepting.,. ,.., all i want from my parents is acceptance and for them to love me who i am. I want them to set aside our differences and be loving no matter what..,,. they just put their belief first.,. I don't care about any of that, i just want them to love me despite us having different views.,.,. it gets complicated... I don't at all hate it.,,. it becomes frustrating when it's forced on me. as for friends.,.,. i just wish i had someone that likes me for who I am,. it's difficult finding friends at the point I am in life,.,. and even more so difficult to find friends that are accepting of my lifestyle.,,. so,.,. even though it hurts a lot,.. I have to accept i might be alone for the next.,. 2... 5... 10,,,,.,.,., 15.,.,..........,,.,. s0 on y3ars s,.., s.,,.,,,,,,,. .,.it'll be rough but.,. hey... i've been lucky enough to get a PC right before this whole hardware crash happened with AI and whatnot..,,. the.. way to go in my eyes is to take up content creation for the time being... and... try to gather an audience... because back when I was Terminator.. before I came out to everyone...I gained peoples attention... may not have been friends... but I was noticed... I made people happy... I always wanted to do storytime animations. I want to give people someone to listen to and relate to... to share my life... good and bad... I could start making funny little one-off animations again that'd just be plain goofy... just for fun I wanna be the people I watch on YouTube... I wanna give the laughter and comfort that they give me... I wanna make an impact again... and this time I shouldn't have to worry about what people think of me like I did as Terminator... I can make whatever I want now... I'm MYSELF... and I know if I put my mind to it... there will be those people that stick by for my content... i know there will be! even if its slow or not how i expected it... I know for a fact there will be the few people that love what I do, and there already are some of those people who already DO love who I am.,,. i just haven't given you guys my all... I'm.,., ready to do that again. Just a big reminder.,. respect that a lot happened to me recently that *HAS* impacted my mental health significantly... i may need time... and consider i may lash out or be slow.... but i'm ready... this can become a hobby again! if you read this entirely through... thanks a whole lot... that there shows I KNOW you listen and care... I need to remind myself... my voice can be heard... I may not have friends, but I have this community.. <3 heres to 2026... i will truly give my all this time.
