I Knew Something was Going on with You... ||VENT||

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< I Knew Something was Going on with You... ||VENT|| > <> i dont feel like explaining myself too much- but uh .. as sound indicates , mines more of since like October .. but yeh .. but my friend + i r throwin a party in june ( <- codewords) .. <> uh- dont expect me to talk abt Batman , Butterfly , Skelly , Xavi , or Micah (aka Victor) ever again .. (maybe Micah) ... i literally only have two real friends in my grade now thxz to them (nd its only bc THEY told ME to do bad things / manipulated me) which r Arii + Freddy ... nd i only got five friends irl who DONT do anythin like that nd stuff .. (Arii , Freddy , Mixxy , A , + B) <> i literally took a break from bein online to calm myself nd stuff- turns out , things were WAY better when i was on 24/7 .. the only thing i cant rlly keep up w/ is scratch + yt bc those r the only two i use by websites :P i mainly use 'em on my schl tablet <> im honestly so tired- its not even from not sleeping-! i had over 15 hrs of sleep today , its not funny .. my no sleeping turned into an unhealthy amount of over sleeping ... i dont even understand it anymore . i srsly dont see a point in anything , cant motivate myself to even draw- heck , to even get out of bed .. nd i PROMISE i am trying- im trying so hard ... yet all i get is drama , after drama , after drama ! then my practices for the play r starting to run to 9pm nd soon enough 10pm .. im turning things in right before the due date or i rush it in the moment its assigned + getting a bad grade or smth .. then im also dealing w/ dummies who r bullyin Freddy jst bc he has ADHD nd cant focus well md stuff .. i get rumors spread around abt me + mockery .. i mean , idrc what conversations u have at ur lunch table , but PLXZ stop having it interfere w/ MY LIFE towards the moment i hit my bed after schl , i dont lay there , wanting- no , CRAVING some sleep , but i cant bc the whole schl thinks im jst some lair who makes up random stories or wtv .. plus , i get more paranoid EVERY . SINGLE . DAY . JST bc i share a class w/ Butterfly + Batman- THATS HOW SCARED I GET TOWARDS I SHAKE !! nd its only gotten worse from rumors + stuff ..! idc of Batman has access to my scratch acc , he prob doesnt even come on here .... all i wanted was to go back to bein friends w/ 'em all- but it all changed bc apparently it was all my fault for having a single . emotion . plus- i barely even joke around w/ nicknames + stuff cuz now im scared someone'll make a nickname relating to the stuff that they have called me (its rlly not good stuff ..) <> uhm .. so , for clarification (which i'll make a proj to explain everything so far more clearly) , Arii is more of my vent / rant character since they r my SECOND main oc .. Vinny (which u can also call him Bunny / BunnyEars as well as calling me Vincent / Vinny) is my MAIN oc .. as u can guess , i went back to having an online persona (which was og Roz when i joined scratch about three or four years ago now i think-) so yeh <> happy news : two of my fandoms dont have a ' your smile is stitched , thingy :3 (aka , SIG + Lab Lore .. i can already feel that ALNST is infected { yes- SIG , Lab Lore , + ALNST r my top three fandoms as of now)