─•──── ? ᯓ★Ready? Start!ᯓ★ ꒰ঌ ໒꒱"Welcome to my second vlog project! I'll be sharing vents, life updates, small joys and more here. If you don't want to hear any vents or if you're just not supportive of those things, you can move on to something else, I won't be name-dropping in vents and trigger warning for things of the general criteria (I'm likely unable to state it here)"꒰ঌ ໒꒱ ♡ ┊꒱ ‣Update of the day!» I haven't been feeling very well recently. A lot of things have been plaguing me and I wish I was able to sort them out easily. It's been getting closer to my birthday and I guess I'm glad for that. I know I'm getting another pair of shoes. I hope they are really pretty heels. I think mom would know I would love heels by now. ♡ ┊꒱ ‣Good news of the day!» I was able to listen to music a lot today. I also met up with Izzy and Elise on our doc just like how we used to say back then. I'm so happy that we got to. I missed it more than anything and it helps me feel a little less lonely. I don't have many true friends like them so Im more than incredibly grateful for them.
૮Ꮚ ┊ ꒱ ‣Vent of the day!» Wish you loved me the way I thought you used to. I hate how much I wish for things that are very bad but I still missed you so much. I don't think you reciprocate that. I wish things were the way they were before. I have problems with my other friends. I hate thinking about them so much. I associated so many songs with them, incorporated them into my daily routine where you once were and now I'm sure they hate me too I wish you could go back to the status I once knew you as before. I wish you understood the extent of what I can't even put into words. It's nice to know how you truly feel about me though, that you hate me as much as I thought you did. I can't love someone that hates me I can't love someone that hates me at all. Although I'm glad I know now, but I still wish for more than I could handle. Even when you used to love me I knew it wasn't the way you said you did. And so maybe it was the way I feared this whole time. I'm going to move on from you one day. No matter how much I regret this happening there's nothing we could do about it now. There's nothing more I have to say. I'll find someone new one day. I hope. I wish I didn't have to though. I wish I could stay with the first person I loved forever. I never wanted it to come to a point where you hate me. Now I hate thinking of how happy I was with you while I had the conscious thought that you were the first person to even act the way with me back then. I took so much pride in the future I now have to rewrite. It's not a burden to me. I just wish everything was the way it used to be a year ago. Now you would never want to hear from me again. Atleast I'm sure of it. I'm content though. Ive poured enough of my complicated feelings into words that have never been able to describe the weight of it. I think I've settled for the fact that you know enough now. I wish it was better than this but is that how it is when you have to get over someone? I'll feel the same way for someone else. I'll love again with someone that maybe won't leave in the future. Hopefully this will lead me to something else. I've learned enough of a lesson with this I think. ⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ ☆Tysm for viewing my third vlog post here! I'll be active so don't be afraid to message or comment, I'm active on this account and on DC ! have an amazing day/night/evening or something and I'll be here laterrr!!! Byeyayay ヾ(*'▽'*)
