I have to admit, they are cute together. (Sorry for the pixelated pictures) {headphone warning} Songs: NF - Lie NF - Hate Myself NF - MISTAKE NF - If You Want Love NF - FEAR NF - How Could You Leave Us NF - Let You Down MORE WILL BE ADDED!!!
I mainly chose these songs because of my past. NF is very similar to me. I have PTSD and ADHD. I don't see myself making it as an adult. I tend to shut down when I'm reminded of those times and don't open back up until a few days later. I guess the reason people see me as a psycho and other things is because I act like one. I used to talk to the moon at night, wishing this was all a dream I would wake up from. The Todoroki FF background was a little bit of what I was going through (except the bad parents part). I'm only an introvert because I don't have great experience with people. Those reading this may think I should get checked out when I say this, but when I see people I don't know or when I'm in big crowds, my heart beats a bit too fast and I feel like I might pass out. But it's not because of heart problems, it's just depression. My past: When I was born, my biological mother started taking drugs. (like NF's mom.) I used to be hungry and eat paint chips off the windowsills because I was left alone in the house along with my other siblings who were only just babies. To this day I don't know who my biological father is. Because of that, I never had anyone I could talk to, learn from, and to go to when I wasn't at my best. When I turned 5, I was sent to a mental hospital because I started having behavior problems at age 3. I would throw things, hit people, and just straight up scream out of nowhere. At the hospital, my behavior spiked. I was allowed to wander freely. But when they found out how I really act, they sent me to an orphanage immediately because my mother lost custody of me and my siblings. I was teased because of the way I looked, acted, and treated other people. I eventually became disgusted by the way I looked myself, and tried to commit slip and slide (scratch won't let me say the actual thing) because of it. I was found on the floor coughing up a bunch of pills. Later, at 6, I found a "home." They were abusive and treated me like a slave. I ran away and almost ended up freezing on a park bench when someone who worked with child protective services took me back to the orphanage. At 8, a decent person adopted me and I lived with my current family ever since. I'm still not happy with the way I look and avoid looking in the mirror. I hide my face in public and don't uncover it until I get home. This is the main reason I completely shut down when someone comments rudely on the way I look, and why I don't really interact with my irl (my computer corrected irl and changed it to girl lol) crushes.
