I'm having so many mixed feelings

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I just kinda need to vent, I am currently in virtual schooling, I started this school year, but not because I wanted to. My mom got a job where the times couldn't work out. So I'm currently at my grandma's house because I've been falling behind and my mom couldn't help because she was sleeping through the day, but I just overheard her and my grandma on the phone (I think they didn't know I was listening because I had my headphones in but the video was on pause) and she said that she didn't want me going back to in person at all and it shattered my heart, I understand her reasoning such as bullying and cyber bullying have increased but we don't have too much of that at the school I go to. But she also brought up the fact that she didn't like that the school I go to is deciding to discuss gender expression, gender identity, and sexuality. I completely understand that it's against her belief and that other parents don't want their children learning about it but Christians have churches they can go to but there isn't a place where people can learn about this other than their parents or the Internet (and sometimes friends), and at my school we have at least 3 people who are openly transphobic and homophobic, one of them even went to school on the first day in a transphobic shirt. Yes, I understand that there are different beliefs, and that schools can give a form or have parents request that they don't want their children in those classes, but a lot of people out there who don't support the Queer community is because they don't understand it. They don't understand dysphoria or euphoria, they don't understand what people feel when they are attracted to the same gender, they don't understand that this isn't recent. A female poet from over 600 years ago wrote poems mainly about attraction to females which is how we got the term sappic, a gay man from from another country who was seen as weak came to the USA around the Revolutionary War and taught the soldiers to fight, and so many more. I just needed this to be said because I nearly broke into tears when my mom said all of that but I couldn't because my grandma was right there. She also said if she wanted me to know about it she would teach me, and I doubt she ever will, so a lot of the kids out there who feel different and hate themselves for it because they were never given any information about this stuff will go to the Internet and they will feel like they can't tell anyone, I feel like I can't talk to anyone in my own family. I'm not saying to teach them at a really young age, maybe start slowly teaching them around late middle school/early highschool, and if they ask you before this answer them and support them, please, I hate the fact that so many schools are making it so if the child outs themselves to a teacher the teacher has to tell the parents, the child will tell their parent when and if they're ready and feel comfortable, they understand their parents better than teachers and strangers. I'm not disrespectful to people who have different beliefs, but I am a little disrespectful to people who force their beliefs on others, say that trans and gay people need to be "fixed," and are in general disrespectful towards others. I don't like it when my mom says that I hang out with the wrong crowd because of their beliefs, I don't care about beliefs, I respect all different kind of beliefs and believe everyone have their rights, I judge and pick people based on personality and how they treat others, over half of my grade do those three things I listed, there are several people who aren't like that but I only have a mutual relationship with the other people and don't know how they really feel about the Queer community. Than parents ask why their kids won't come to them with anything after the child tried to come out and they ignored it or tried to fix it. I just really needed to vent, I know different people have different ways of rising kids but some of the queer people discover who they are because of the Internet are either going to grow up in closet in front of their parents or might distance themselves, and people who aren't part of the queer community are either going to lecture themselves or not support the community because they don't understand it.