[TWs: depictions of grief and self-doubt, mentioning of death and mentionings of the death of kits] No. No, no, no... He'd - He'd tried to warn them! Hadn't he? It was only the other day...How could this have happened? How could /he/ have let this happen? If he went back now...It could be like nothing had happened in the first place! He'd poke his head in through the nursery, and there'd they be! Four kits! ...His kits. But Yuccaspark was no fool. He /knew/ what would happen if he went back to camp now. There'd be a quiet nursery. Not empty, but /quiet/. A silence that threatened to swallow Yuccaspark whole. A silence that threatened to swallow the entire /world/ whole. ...And for once in his life? There was nothing Yuccaspark wished for more, than to have never known anything at all. The warrior suddenly collapsed to the ground, unable to hold himself together any longer. The grass felt like thorns against Yuccaspark's fur as he lay there sulking, and the bubbling of the stream seemed to endlessly taunt him. 'Oh, what a father /you/ are!' The world seemed to cry at him, the words in his mind burning more than fire. 'Why didn't you do better? Why couldn't you have done /something/?' Yuccaspark burrowed his heard in his paws, attempting to block it all out. But the words? They were his own. And words were a /very/ difficult thing to block out. 'Do something!' 'Anything!' 'Anything at all!' ... And so Yuccaspark got back up. The water stopped. His words stopped. But the world didn't. ... But the words had been right, hadn't they? He /was/ going to do something. He had to. At this point, it was frankly stupid to deny it. He'd make sure this would never happen again. Never, ever, ever, again. He'd be a better father. A better warrior, and a better cat. He'd be a better Yuccaspark. And nobody could stop him now. ... [ THE END ]
\\ Afterword // - uhh so um yeah 2/4 of Yuccaspark's kits just died </3 he's not feeling very well right now because of this, as you can veryy much see in this srp - For this time period, Yuccaspark will be much more volatile than usual, and will likely snap at other cats often (especially if he doesn't know them!) - As for his remaining currently living kits, Yuccaspark will be a biit overprotective of them now :') He''s also especially terrified of them going out of camp, but since luckily enough they're becoming apprentices very soon, it's a bit less bad than it usually would be. - So as a tldr, two of Yuccaspark's kits just died, he's feeling just a tiny bit malicious right now, and he's really protective over his remaining kits now! ...Yay?
