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yez its @ardeeble speaking rdy fr takeoff- *explodes* RANT WARNING / C0NTREVERSAL/PERSONAL IRL STUFF/PLUH/stuff u have been warned... pls don´t brush it off as a joke but don´t mind its existence and pls don´t bring it up much. ·am I sleepy-yes ·am i tired of meh lyfe-probably ·i rlly wanna just draw but i either have no motivation,or i have to grind *insert fire emoji x 3* ·smoll vent or whatever thing if u wanna read- for the loyal fans i wanna just get stuff off my chest >< pls no battles in the comments when u read this its now between u and me okay? great! pluh :,D okay im kinda just tired in general all the time- i cannot rlly stand plpl anymore irl *dubai chocolate, tung tung tung sahur, lots off swearing, rlly disrespectful comments all the time abt my friends and me included.. *the scratch community NOT INCLUDED (yall are saints)* *this is in school* im not mean and unkind irl unless necessary for self defense, im just neuteral most the time and hope not to get dragged into a drama of sm kind. and its just a real tough enviorment and i feel just a needle in a haystack or a shrimpo amongst the toons bc i hate everything at school, literally the only escape is my friends (*2* proper ones) ( & 2*from my old skewl which was goated/peak =v=* ) skewl is uhh how do i put this., stress and torture :C -with the pressure to get good grades to not look like a complete idiot or dweeb so i keep to myself among strangers and then that just makes me more tired -id be myself but i swear il get made fun of :( honest that one meme of the light. bulb breaking and then putting the graduation hat is literall the embodiemnt of skewl in my mind. *wilting flower emoji+ -its not just skewl either, my parents are divorced not legally or else id be forever separated from my dad but its like they take turns every week pluh and i feel rlly rlly lonley sometimes, and my mum is intense ---- one moment she can be letting me get games and robux (yum), next she starts yelling at me bc i don´t like commiting to the hopeless after schools + activities i despise them she said *you must everyones doing them, i had to do more at ur age* - im not u i reply back and she gets angrier and starts threatening the very things that make me happy... my ipad*fr drawing and grinding* , this very platform , and food bc then shell start feeding me porrige fr every meal of the day for every time we argue. :(( and she constantly takes away my privacy wants to look at my messages/texts but i can only text my mum, dad and so uh, and don´t get me started on the roblox party chats if she knew she would be tryng to check all of them messages ._. i prefer being with my dad on week days, my MUM already got a boyfriend,,,,,,,,,,,, == i wanna punch him for getting super involved in everything i don´t like him *gut feeling i guess* also scratch um .. plpl keep saying im underatted but idk how i am bc im a regular entity in the server i kr my stuff is nice but its nothing compared to alot ot plpls work i think im balanced. :> AND TYSM AGAIN FOR THE 150+ FOLLOWS OMG i swear 150 different plpl think abt that... if they were all put in a room you will realize how many plpl there are. makes me feel valued as an artist & scratcher ,) pluh bya its 1:16 am on a friday next friday its another friday the 13th and also march 15th or i dunno 18th forgot the john toe myth but guess who´s going to get those annual badges in forsaken? ITS ME!! *i feel my sanity is and 54% rn == * music & games are currently raising it.*sanity * if u kr my parents pls don´t tell them abt this or i will get depressed * -i just wanted to share this with yall for when im not usually active keep in mind i may not be happy all the time and be suffering bc of stuff, i rlly wanna be happy and spread joy to others but some emotional things can restrain my motivation as well and the overwhelming stuff pluhhhhhhh im rlly down rn, but heres some announcments >< pluh ·im gaining more motivation currrently ·pluh iv made countless oc desighns and they are still in alpha mode but some are getting there like izzy,zoey,lilyith & clover or smth*still don´t kr her name* yall have not had too much of a glimpse of them yet. but im making an izzy refrence sheet ·i think i understand art now ^^ i kr alot of strategies that have upgraded to art but i still consider myself intermediate +well im no pro at all + iv gotten better at animation as well :D some will be dropping soon *hopefully* iv gotten better grades than usual or i could have just gotten dumber heh. by the time its the end of this month ill be done with 3/4 of the skewl year ehhehe freedom coming soon :D *cheers* - bye out - peace yh this thumbnail is my fav drink and yez i am an aquarius lol january - hopefully this does not get banned bc ofc scratch wants to ban my stuff