hey y'all! so... as some of you might know, I made a 'my life' picrew story ages ago.... but it kinda got outdated and I forgot some stuff and idk, so I'm redoing it! ya know the drill, click or space (birthname) 0-4yrs- she/her, default setting :P (cis and straight) I was born. My parents dressed me in girly clothes and lots of dresses. I didn't know about LGBTQ+ but then again, I was a baby lol. Looking back, I was very obviously autistic but I guess everyone just thought I was like any other toddler. Went to Disneyland when I was 4. (birthname) 5yrs- she/her, cis, straight cut my hair and donated it to this cancer charity thing. I was completely nonverbal at school, and had listening difficulties. My mum thought I was deaf. Loved fake glasses. Got this really good friend called Zara. We were friends for the whole of reception then had a stupid argument about something random. At some point we stopped being friends. (birthname) 6/7yrs- she/her, cis, straight In Year 1 I was really lonely and at breaktime I sat my the field and ate grass everyday. I was really weird. I thought I had a good group of friends but whenever we played a game they put me in a corner and told me to wait for them and they never came. Eventually got a good friend called D, we were besties. For some reason I hated playing with the girls and always chased boys around. Idk I was weird. Started to get really angry and have 'tantrums'. My dad got leukemia, a cancer. I didn't really know what was happening, but I was sad all the time. My brother, who was 10, looked after me because my mum had a breakdown and slept for ages. At the middle of Year 2 a girl called Brooke moved to our school, and we became best friends, though I was still friends with D. (birthname) 8yrs- she/her, cis, straight Lockdown. I had to start homeschooling before anyone else, to protect my dad. He got out of hospital, but we still had to take him for chemo. It was good though because whilst everyone else had to stay inside we could drop my dad at the hospital and go to the beach. At the start of homeschooling, the teachers didn't give us work. My mum set me and my brother stuff to do, and it was really fun. Then our school got teams and we had to do actual work. I hated it and had lots of meltdowns. Had a teacher who I thought I liked, then later on in my life I realized he was terrible. Honestly, I barely did the homeschool work, I hated it. Got diagnosed with autism around the end of lockdown i think. I wasn't deaf, I had auditory processing disorder and selective mutism. (birthname) 9rs- she/her, cis, straight Went back to school at some point. Still friends with D, better friends with Brooke. I met two other girls who I'll call C and E, though we weren't best friends. C moved to our school during lockdown, and was best friends with E. Can't remember much tbh. (birthname) 10yrs- she/her, cis, bisexual Started to wear more boy-ish clothes, especially as I was starting puberty. Didn't know about LGBTQ+ except for gay, lesbian and bisexual. Randomly said to my friends I must be bisexual because boys and girls are cool. Didn't think about it much. Went on my first school residential, and cut my hair because I didn't know how to brush it lol. Got to be best friends with Brooke, and really good friends with C. E wasn't in our class, and I think I was kind of mean to her, and I feel really bad about that. Started being obsessed with songwriting, but kind of stopped in year 6. (birthname) 11yrs- she/her, cis, bisexual Wore bunches/plaits (help i can't spell) in my hair to school everyday. Basically that dorky/babyish kid who barely anyone likes. Had the best teacher in the world who literally helped me so much. Started chess club at school. Got a minorrr crush on E's crush lol. I got much closer with E since we were in the same class, and she was my only friend who also had a phone. Oh, in year 5 there was big drama with D, she started bullying me etc., the school "sorted it out" by telling me off for not standing up for myself. Best friends with Brooke now, she's one of my favorite people in the world. Went on my second school residential. It was horrible. Really smart, and I was doing year 8 work already. Nervous about comp.
(birthname) 12yrs (year 7)- she/her, bisexual Moved up to secondary school kinda scared but it was alright! Still really dorky, I was in a form with Brooke, C and E, and we made a new friend called B, who went to our primary but we just didn't hang out with her. Started being obsessed with fake glasses again. I had a five minute pass to go to lunch, ad could use the sensory room whenever I wanted. B started bullying me because I liked Taylor Swift, and my other friends kept on saying I would have to find new friends because a group of 5 doesn't work apparently. Got a crush on a boy, J, but C started going out with him. They were forced to break up though. We made friends with lots of other people in out form. There are like 4 main groups of people in our form lol. Group 1: Basically the obnoxious rough boys who I try to avoid, Except for one though, who's kind of nice. Group 2: Three 'popular' girls who want nothing to do with us. Group 3: Three boys who are my really good friends, though there was some drama between us at some point. Group 4: Me, C, E, B and Brooke, and a bunch of other girls who are honestly so nice, and like 1 boy who is autistic, loves mushroom and probably gay. Brooke started hanging out with other girls to be more 'popular' but still liked me. Or so I thought... Jay 12yrs (start of year 8)- she/they demigirl bisexual/biromantic Started this scratch account!!! Questioned my gender for ages, found demigirl. Changed my name. Still got a crush on J, uh.... idk. B stopped making fun of me for liking Taylor Swift, turns out she's rly nice and I kind of diagnosed her with autism. Drama with Brooke started! yay /sarc. She started telling me to shut up literally all the time, even when I wasn't talking to her. She makes me feel really bad about myself. My other friends are nicer to me, but 2 of them are 'proud racists', like what? My brain isn't braining so I can't remember much. I came out to my mum as a demigirl after E's birthday. She thought I had been 'persuaded online'. She said she supports, but I'm probably too young. Told me not to come out at school. She completely forgot after that day, and never used my preferred pronouns. And yet still says she's supportive. Started to get back into songwriting, and wrote my debut album entirely by myself. Jamie 13yrs (now/middle of year 8)- he/they, nonbinary, aroace A LOT has changed. I went through many many many labels, and recently landed on nonbinary which feels right. Turns out my first and biggest crush was just extreme platonic attraction lol. Awakened as a therian, turns out, my mum hates therians :/. Life is sh-! I have gone to school for like 2 days in the last 3 months. Everyone thinks I need to switch schools, or that I'm refusing to go because of school but it's not. It's not because of the school- it's because of the people and masking, and hiding who I am and being misgendered. Still songwriting, started to teach myself how to play guitar, ukulele and piano. I had drum lessons in year 7, but stopped because of the teacher. Now self-taught in drums, and I might be getting singing lessons soon! Wrote my second album. On the waiting list for a ADHD diagnoses!!! Also, turns out I'm short-sighted or smth, so i got glasses! Struggling to see the point in life, don't know where I want to go in life or anything. I don't have any real friends. Yeah. So... that's it! I probably overshared/got some facts wrong bcs my brain isn't braining. But yeah, that's my life!
