Hey guys... I just wanted to let ya'll know how ive been doing.... Im in pain... Physically and mentally... im covered in scars... My heart hurts.. People keep calling me useless... Everyone i know irl makes me feel bad about being sad... I hate myself sometimes... People are jealous of my life.. FOR WHAT!?! You dont know what goes on behind these walls... I never tell anyone how i feel... And im hurting... all the time... Im hurting... I keep thinking of my dead dad and wonder if im letting em down... Dad... If so.. im sorry...I sometimes wonder if anyone would notice if i disappeared.... I dont know... I feel worthless... I feel bad cuz i cant always be online for everyone... I keep thinking im an annoying lover to my wife... I feel like I have zero purpose... I wanna see her but every time i try, something goes wrong.... Im sorry... That's all i can say now... Im sorry... Please dont hate me... And for ya'll.... So many of you have been hear throughout my hard times but i can rarely ever repay that kindnes... Im sorry... If you dont wanna be my friend anymore... I understand... Im sorry.... Sorry... sorry... sorry... God... Help me... Someone... anyone... Please...
