Okay, ik I shouldn't be sad or nothin but for WHATEVER REASON, I feel crappy cuz my friend (with benefits, idk but we on that sorta level) got a bf and now I feel like I been cheated on, WHEN I KNOW I HAVEN'T CUZ WE NOT EVEN TOGETHER, PLUS I'M TAKEN BUT MIND U, this is the same girl who had my behind TRAPPED in a metaphorical WEB, cuz like when we were on and off dating, she made me feel like I wasn't good enough for her and would openly get with other ppl even while dating me, and that junk HURT, like I was in the TRENCHES hurt, and what makes it even worse is that I was, and might even still be, addicted to her, like a drvg!!!!!!! She's EXACTLY my type and even when I don't want to like her, I do, which SUCKS!!!!!!!! I don't wanna like her but I do and I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She knows about how I felt about the whole addiction thing and has even apologized for it, even tho it's not her fault...but it's like I feel so bad and sad and mad and jealous and idk y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T)
EDIT (5-27) ERM..so idc anymore ngl..also I jus stopped caring and told my gf and she rightfully got upset but understood..also the fwb haven't talked in about a week or so idk but rn I'm good so it's rlly free game tbh
